im still alive belive it or not

[superflea]

Howdy howdy everyone. I know its a complete surpise a journal update of a journal thats supposed to be dead. It will be all right dont worry if you need me to I can hold your hand so that we can get through this togther. First let me just say things are going good in Colorado not great but good about the same as in Tenn I guess though Im not living

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[stefmac8]

I would honestly be ecstatic if you moved back to Tennessee! But it's really a decision that is entirely up to you. I know I miss you and I'm sure all your other friends do too. And I'm sure you could find a job down here. Where were you working before? Maybe you could go back there? I don't know, just a thought. And as far as wanting to be self sufficient, I know the feeling. I'd really like to move out of my parents house right now, but I need to try to save as much money as I can. I'd like to have a nice chunk of change sitting in the bank with my name on it for once in my life. It seems like every time I get a nice little chunk of change, something comes along immediately to snatch that away from me. (I.E.- I'm getting almost $3,000 back in financial aid return money at the end of the month. You know where that's going instead of my bank account? It's going to the Ford dealership so my dad can get his car back. (He got in a wreck like 3 months ago and he still hasn't been able to afford to get the car back.) So I'm not going to be able to completely pay off all my credit card bills like I wanted to. I swear this happens every time I get some money. As soon as I get it, something comes up where I have to fix my car or my horse has to have a vet come out and sew an appendage back on or some ridiculous thing.) Anyway, back to the main point. If you really miss Tennessee, come home. I understand what you mean. Colorado is really pretty. I loved it when I was there. It was beautiful and I'd have loved to go and explore the mountains, but I was never so glad to hit Tennessee soil as I was after that trip. As much as I complain about Tennessee and as much as I dislike a lot of things about it, it's become a home to me. I know where everything is, I'm familiar with the terain (i.e.- used to HILLS.), and I've gotten somewhat acclimated to the weather. I know I'm not going to stay in Tennessee for the rest of my life, but I know I'm going to feel a strong pang of homesickness when I do finally leave. So just look within yourself and do some soul-searching to figure out where it is that you're meant to be right now. That's the best advice I can give you.