it's been a long time... shouldn't have left you
without a dope beat to step to, step to...step, step to.
so anyway...
bullet points of my life:
** broke up with Donald (new boy, met him working at Affina)
** lost my job at Affina (I think... this has yet to be seen...)
** got my settlement from Geico
** organized my art room
starting from the bottom up,
the room was a project for me, I moved furniture, bought and assembled a bookshelf, bought and filled a storage drawer thing and filled it almost to capacity with all of the weird things that were on my art desk...
more happened... but it was mindless and involved a lot of screwing...
the 3000 dollar check finally went through on my account... I'm torn between 3 things...
1. paying medical bills.
2. buying a car
3. buying a computer
lied, there is a 4th... not working for a little while as I would be financially stable (quote-unquote) enough to not have to worry about much... but the way I fly through money is ridiculous...and I wouldn't be financially stable (quote-unquote again) for more than 3 months... that's tops.
I really should pay my medical bills, a few reasons... my credit will be more fucked, I promised in writing that I would, I really should.
as for the car... well... I haven't found anything in my pricerange for a while and with not working, my price range is rapidly dwindling...
the computer is a different story, well, not really... I have sorely missed having a computer of my own, it's been a while now and the practical reasons are just NOT THERE to own one... source of entertainment, yes. source of communication, of course... but won't feed me when I'm hungry, won't get me to or from work, won't provide constant conversation.. it doesn't fill the needs of life... however, if I'm not going to pay my medical bills and if plans follow through for moving to a larger city, there is much less a "need" for a car than "need" for a computer.
I'm pondering...
my recent job.
it's weird to have enjoyed a job as much as I have at Affina, it's not often that I look back on something I've quit and been actually saddened. I truely miss everyone I worked with there, I miss taking calls and dealing with the stupidity of the average computer. I miss the stupid office humor, I miss the regular schedule, I miss most everything about it. I have done 5 days of no call no show, I'm pretty sure I can't have that job back in the foreseeable future... but damn it, I want that job back and am willing to do whatever necessary to get it.
the reason for stopping showing up to work was because my now ex boyfriend was causing me to have
it's weird, I came home one night and then when donald was supposed to come by and pick me up I started panicing, I couldn't stand the thought of seeing him and felt a physical and emotional need to get out of my house and away from the posibility of him dropping by that night... I spent that night with Cid and Ben, just sitting around shooting the shit, that was also the night of a rather large snow storm. I had hoped that the storm would keep him away, and it did until the next day. when he showed up, drank two really wonderful beers and left. I was so relieved when he did finally go...
I didn't show up to work the next day so I wouldn't have to see him, I called in, I called in the following day I was scheduled. he continually tried to contact me and I just couldn't handle the thought of seeing him.... now it isn't so bad, but I still don't want to go into Affina because I might see him.
so I stopped showing up to work... bad idea. my supervisor called me and left the sweetest message on my phone I have ever heard. I have been meaning to call him back but have been avoiding doing so as I really really don't want to work around my ex.
on to the ex...
I started dating him for a few reasons, one because he really really convinced me he cared. two, it was convenient as all hell. three, he was adorable and sweet and nice and wouldn't leave me alone about dating him... a lesson for everyone out there... don't date a co-worker. don't date someone who is too insecure to be away from you for more than one day. by no means, ever, date a dave matthews fan who isn't open to different music. don't date someone who has a totally different sex drive and set of sexual interests. just don't.
I could go on and on about what the final nail in the coffin was, I think it was the fact that he called me his Ex-girlfriend's name, his ex of over 3 months... I could be wrong, but my name isn't shayla.
so anyway...
bullet points of my life:
** broke up with Donald (new boy, met him working at Affina)
** lost my job at Affina (I think... this has yet to be seen...)
** got my settlement from Geico
** organized my art room
starting from the bottom up,
the room was a project for me, I moved furniture, bought and assembled a bookshelf, bought and filled a storage drawer thing and filled it almost to capacity with all of the weird things that were on my art desk...
more happened... but it was mindless and involved a lot of screwing...
the 3000 dollar check finally went through on my account... I'm torn between 3 things...
1. paying medical bills.
2. buying a car
3. buying a computer
lied, there is a 4th... not working for a little while as I would be financially stable (quote-unquote) enough to not have to worry about much... but the way I fly through money is ridiculous...and I wouldn't be financially stable (quote-unquote again) for more than 3 months... that's tops.
I really should pay my medical bills, a few reasons... my credit will be more fucked, I promised in writing that I would, I really should.
as for the car... well... I haven't found anything in my pricerange for a while and with not working, my price range is rapidly dwindling...
the computer is a different story, well, not really... I have sorely missed having a computer of my own, it's been a while now and the practical reasons are just NOT THERE to own one... source of entertainment, yes. source of communication, of course... but won't feed me when I'm hungry, won't get me to or from work, won't provide constant conversation.. it doesn't fill the needs of life... however, if I'm not going to pay my medical bills and if plans follow through for moving to a larger city, there is much less a "need" for a car than "need" for a computer.
I'm pondering...
my recent job.
it's weird to have enjoyed a job as much as I have at Affina, it's not often that I look back on something I've quit and been actually saddened. I truely miss everyone I worked with there, I miss taking calls and dealing with the stupidity of the average computer. I miss the stupid office humor, I miss the regular schedule, I miss most everything about it. I have done 5 days of no call no show, I'm pretty sure I can't have that job back in the foreseeable future... but damn it, I want that job back and am willing to do whatever necessary to get it.
the reason for stopping showing up to work was because my now ex boyfriend was causing me to have
it's weird, I came home one night and then when donald was supposed to come by and pick me up I started panicing, I couldn't stand the thought of seeing him and felt a physical and emotional need to get out of my house and away from the posibility of him dropping by that night... I spent that night with Cid and Ben, just sitting around shooting the shit, that was also the night of a rather large snow storm. I had hoped that the storm would keep him away, and it did until the next day. when he showed up, drank two really wonderful beers and left. I was so relieved when he did finally go...
I didn't show up to work the next day so I wouldn't have to see him, I called in, I called in the following day I was scheduled. he continually tried to contact me and I just couldn't handle the thought of seeing him.... now it isn't so bad, but I still don't want to go into Affina because I might see him.
so I stopped showing up to work... bad idea. my supervisor called me and left the sweetest message on my phone I have ever heard. I have been meaning to call him back but have been avoiding doing so as I really really don't want to work around my ex.
on to the ex...
I started dating him for a few reasons, one because he really really convinced me he cared. two, it was convenient as all hell. three, he was adorable and sweet and nice and wouldn't leave me alone about dating him... a lesson for everyone out there... don't date a co-worker. don't date someone who is too insecure to be away from you for more than one day. by no means, ever, date a dave matthews fan who isn't open to different music. don't date someone who has a totally different sex drive and set of sexual interests. just don't.
I could go on and on about what the final nail in the coffin was, I think it was the fact that he called me his Ex-girlfriend's name, his ex of over 3 months... I could be wrong, but my name isn't shayla.