Miracle- Finding the End in Circles [The Remake] Prologue
Title: Miracle- Finding the End in Circles [The Remake] Prologue
Pairing: Kyumin & Haemin
Rating: PG13
Genre: Friendship, Angst, Romance
Summary: Tainted, used and broken, that was how Sungmin was. The boy next door was Kyuhyun - rich, intelligent and good looking. Donghae fell into the equation, almost naturally. Finding the End in Circles - a cliché story where two teenagers become the savior of one and two hearts fight for one.
Sungmin's POV
If you ask me how I had lived my life a few years ago, I would duck my head instantly. The me who seemed very strong was once weak. Back then, I was always afraid. After all, I’m only a simple being who have no control, none at all, with what fate and destiny decides.
There’s a saying that says high school is the most important period in your life. In truth, I had once scoffed at it. When I was in middle school -at fifteen- my life was still a life of hell. I live everyday in fear of closing my eyes. I live everyday being afraid of what tomorrow might bring.
That was the life I was living. I was tainted, used and broken. However, while god has thrown me his hardships, he has also thrown me a piece of mercy. I was given a strong heart that was able to protect myself. It may sound cliché but this heart of mine that I was blessed with; it was able to lessen the pain that I felt.
Or in simpler words, I was excellent at lying to myself. You’re going to be fine, was the most used up words I told myself. This doesn’t hurt, I keep telling my heart. This is nothing. Don’t cry.
But that was back when I was fifteen. When I entered high school at sixteen, I began to realize why they say that it was the most crucial part of your life. I began to understand that high school isn’t just a place to learn what was written in your text books but to learn life lessons. I learnt to protect the important things in life with my heart. I learnt to love sincerely.
I obtained friendships in high school. I fell in love. I fell out of love. I was hurt. I was wounded. I shed tears and my heart was broken again. However, through high school, I also learn the meaning of adversity and independence. I also realize that there’s no human kind enough to extend a helping hand to those running away all the time. In this life that is full of cruelty, only the strong would be able to survive. Those who are constantly afraid to stand on their own two feet would not survive.
You know that saying -by Ryan Murphy, Brad Falchuk- that when God closes a door, he’ll open a window? Well, sometimes out of nowhere he’ll do you one better and he’ll kick a whole wall down.
That was exactly what happened to me. In high school, I was saved. I was saved by two of the most important people in my life that I’m about to name. Listen carefully to my story because it would not be told twice. Listen carefully but hold back your tears. This story isn’t here to weaken the hurting you. I’m telling you my story because I believe that the wounded you right now will be able to pull through whatever hardships that are thrown at you.
The first person was Lee Donghae. Donghae was someone who was frequently at wits end whenever he was with me. Donghae was someone who would tell you that it’s fine, I’m fine, even with a knife stabbed deep into his heart. That was the kind of person Donghae was. Donghae was always so considerate of those around him so much that he left himself uncared for. Donghae cares for people sincerely up till his last breath.
Next was Cho Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun was a peculiar male. When I first met him, I stared at his face. His lips that were always smiling were merely a distraction. Focus long enough on his face, and you’ll see the streaks of dry tears across his cheeks. Focus long enough, and you’ll notice his sad, expressionless eyes. That’s Kyuhyun for you. Kyuhyun takes care of himself well, making sure that nobody is worried over him. Always hiding his feelings, Kyuhyun was always hurting all by himself. Unlike Donghae, Kyuhyun doesn’t know how to protect with his arms. The hurting Kyuhyun back then protects sincerely with his heart. Kyuhyun is someone who loves genuinely -with honesty almost to the point of naivety.
There are a lot of things that I miss lately. Suddenly, without realizing it, high school is one of them. Lately, so suddenly, even if it’s just for a moment, I begin to miss the past. The love I felt then was still there; lingering and poking. The pain I felt has never lessened. I sometimes wonder why but never once was I able to come up with an answer.
“Love is only for the strong” they say. Smiling and laughing while actually hurting; a strong me is actually weak. I’m grateful with this heart of mine that is constantly working hard despite the many heart aches I’ve put it through. Its loyalty to me would never be comparable to anything else in the world.
Having been hurt so many times, it loves selectively now-always so afraid. This strong me that love has broken am slowly turning into someone that I do not recognize. This strong heart is even stronger now.
This is my story. The story that I’m about to tell you is the story of how a scarred boy full of fear for the world became the strongest man with a heart that protects earnestly. After tonight, this story will no longer be a secret.
Silently, I begged myself. Please do not hurt anymore. It won’t matter anymore if I fall. What’s so wrong about falling? I can always stand up again. The vast blue sky that has greeted me into the world would be there to greet me again. The sky I’m standing under would still be the same. Why rush through life? I only live it once. Rush through it and the many wonders would be lost.
What other people say shouldn’t matter now. This is my life. I will grit my teeth and I will live it proudly. Fight, I will. Fall, I will. However, in this life that I live only once, I will not do cowardly things that will hurt others. Please watch over me kindly as you listen to my story.
I will live with dignity. I will live proudly. I promise.
YUN HANEUL;;;; Remaking everything like a boss.