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So... Heidi's up visiting her family. Man she's gone through a lot of shit lately. Don't even know how I'd keep walking after all she's been through but I suppose you just have to. Lost most her family, pretty much has had monetary setbacks to the point of being back at financial square one (lost her mp3 player, car broke down, lost her glasses, computer got hit with a bad virus), she can't seem to find a job that makes her feel worth wile... not to mention the last bits of family she has left seems to squabble about the stupidest little things.
Yet she's one of the things keeping me sane.
I mean, yeah it's nice to have some space to myself for a bit, but coming home tonight all I could think of is how incredibly empty and devoid of life my room's going to be... how when I get up tomorrow there's going to be no one to worry about waking up, or anyone to talk about how we don't want to go to work with like we've done every day now.
I wonder if this is what it's going to be like when she finally leaves me. I mean, we both have our lives to live, so one day we'll go our ways. She'll probably leave for some other state where movies are more of a viable means of living... I'll probably stay here.
Guess I just have to find someone else to keep me sane before then... or I'm going to have lots of cats or something... or be one of those people that cares about their dog(s) way too much. I mean to the point of spending thousands of dollars to stave off their diabetes or doggy cancers.
Been slowly replacing my CDs with mp3s. I still have a little pocket of them even though I don't even have anything to play them on anymore. Just something to sit around I suppose... like holding on to old moldy records.
Aaanyways, gotta catch the bus tomorrow early morning even though there's some kind of cold hazard warning or some bull crap like that, so enough post-Torchwood watching depressive rambling. That show seriously only makes me depressed after watching it. Suppose being a sci-fi drama it's doing it's job. Thumbs up to Davies. I'll have to remember to save time to trace it with some Sarah Jane. XD
Yet she's one of the things keeping me sane.
I mean, yeah it's nice to have some space to myself for a bit, but coming home tonight all I could think of is how incredibly empty and devoid of life my room's going to be... how when I get up tomorrow there's going to be no one to worry about waking up, or anyone to talk about how we don't want to go to work with like we've done every day now.
I wonder if this is what it's going to be like when she finally leaves me. I mean, we both have our lives to live, so one day we'll go our ways. She'll probably leave for some other state where movies are more of a viable means of living... I'll probably stay here.
Guess I just have to find someone else to keep me sane before then... or I'm going to have lots of cats or something... or be one of those people that cares about their dog(s) way too much. I mean to the point of spending thousands of dollars to stave off their diabetes or doggy cancers.
Been slowly replacing my CDs with mp3s. I still have a little pocket of them even though I don't even have anything to play them on anymore. Just something to sit around I suppose... like holding on to old moldy records.
Aaanyways, gotta catch the bus tomorrow early morning even though there's some kind of cold hazard warning or some bull crap like that, so enough post-Torchwood watching depressive rambling. That show seriously only makes me depressed after watching it. Suppose being a sci-fi drama it's doing it's job. Thumbs up to Davies. I'll have to remember to save time to trace it with some Sarah Jane. XD