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It's funny how God reminds you in little, conscience-poking ways that He's still around. Last night was kind of rough, for a number of reasons, but today has been good. This morning before school, the baby called me mom (buhhh), Eliya told me she really likes having me here and begged me not to go home, I got to school and one of the 9th graders had made me a little card with Philippians 4:6, and given me a little painted stone thingy, and my deputy principal told me I was doing an awesome job of running exams (double buhhh) and that I could stay forever if I wanted to haha. (I dont think he meant that seriously, since I'm paying them to be here, not the other way around.) And one of the other teachers Lisa gave her testimony this morning, and it was all about not judging people but being there for them, and learning to forgive, and all this stuff. poke poke. Sometimes I get tired of these growing experiences. I've never physically grown that fast, so I never had like the growth pain you get when your bones grow too fast or whatnot, but dang. Seriously. Give it a break already. Then other times, I'm like "This is good, this is a learning opportunity." I think it changes based on who's involved. Hurts more when it's people closer to you. But you still have friends who are willing to stay up until 7am their time and tell you it's ok while you cry in the dark over fights and pictures, and listen to emo songs. And those are the friends that get you through the growing periods and are on the other side waiting for you no matter how big a jerk you've been to them. That's the kind of friend I want to be. I dont think I'm doing a super-awesome job of it right now, but I'm working on it.