ok
I stopped taking my medication a bit ago. And I thought it was fine. But I have been anxious like crazy for about two weeks now. I don't know if I should get back on it or not. I guess I will have to talk to Ms. Mcmillan. I wish I had someone I could talk to...I mean I have lots of friends but not people I can really confide in or talk about this kind of stuff with. The only people I did have that with are no longer available, I mean its ok...I just feel, alone. I am doing better. Its just the anxiety. It drives me nuts. Last night when I got home I gave Eric a ring and he told me about Laura. I think...people should not act like less than they are. I mean a married woman? I can't believe he even looked at it as a possibility, to me that is just soo...low. If he could see what a wonderful person he is...I mean he deserves something better than that. Then again, if he looks at her as a possibility then maybe he isn't who I thought he was.
Anyway...Things are pretty good.
Maybe things will be ok b/w me and Sam...I just...I don't know. I feel kind of cheated. And he gave me reasons why he is "turned off" by me, they weren't true. I just...it really tears me up...I'm not deceitful, or a liar, I just genuinely...ugh...I'm done.
I'm not down or anything. I am in a pretty good mood and I had a good, thought long week. I am really sore from running and dancing though. I think we are going four miles today. Hard, but fun too, and its not like we run the whole way. But we do as much as we can! I have a new found love for the U.C. cuz I can get pickle chips! They are sooo goood. I am watching Simply Irrisistable...cute movie. I think I would like to date again if I met someone. However, I have become so picky. I remember Georgi though and how things worked. I have learned that there is nothing wrong with being single. I think Mckenzi was right, in highschool I always had to have a guy, and I did. Anyway, its nice to breathe.
Anyway...Things are pretty good.
Maybe things will be ok b/w me and Sam...I just...I don't know. I feel kind of cheated. And he gave me reasons why he is "turned off" by me, they weren't true. I just...it really tears me up...I'm not deceitful, or a liar, I just genuinely...ugh...I'm done.
I'm not down or anything. I am in a pretty good mood and I had a good, thought long week. I am really sore from running and dancing though. I think we are going four miles today. Hard, but fun too, and its not like we run the whole way. But we do as much as we can! I have a new found love for the U.C. cuz I can get pickle chips! They are sooo goood. I am watching Simply Irrisistable...cute movie. I think I would like to date again if I met someone. However, I have become so picky. I remember Georgi though and how things worked. I have learned that there is nothing wrong with being single. I think Mckenzi was right, in highschool I always had to have a guy, and I did. Anyway, its nice to breathe.