Come on, a lie awaits.
And it hurts very badly. I had a very rough night last night. I knew I had no one to go to though. The first person I wanted to talk to was Samuel, but I know that I can't do that. I just miss our friendship a lot. But I suppose you get what is coming to you. I realize the fault. I guess I received what I had been looking for...and turned out to not really want it.
I am very tired, but I need to study! I saw Kelvin at Applebees along with Robert, who lets just go ahead and admit I don't think I will ever stop being crazy about. I mean when I remember the other weekend, and just the way we were...I mean its like nothing bad ever happened between us...the way he holds me...I just...I dunno...and we just talk...nothing more happens and its amazing. But anyway. Kelvin and I have been catching up and I think we could be pretty good friends, I know he really wants that. He is very sweet and is coming to help me with my poor lil fishy. Maybe I can take care of it on my own though. I spent the weekend at Marie's. We had a lot of fun. I cleaned out her bathroom for her so that we can redecorate. I talked to Ryan today. I have the strangest fondness for people. I think he may fly over and visit me...but that is a very small possibility. I cannot believe his parents are leaving. There is something about all those precious memories that will always always have a place in my heart. I mean it makes me tear up...its just so...innocent, and beautiful. ::sigh::
I am really really thirsty. I think I will go get some diet coke about now. Oh I went on another date with Ben. He is so pretty and very very sweet. He is adorable, but for some reason I'm not that into him. Maybe I just need to get to know him better. I dunno, he works hard and is smart, and coaches lil kids' soccer, and makes it to church every Sunday. He is just great. Maybe too great. That's dumb, anyway...I need to get a drink!
I am very tired, but I need to study! I saw Kelvin at Applebees along with Robert, who lets just go ahead and admit I don't think I will ever stop being crazy about. I mean when I remember the other weekend, and just the way we were...I mean its like nothing bad ever happened between us...the way he holds me...I just...I dunno...and we just talk...nothing more happens and its amazing. But anyway. Kelvin and I have been catching up and I think we could be pretty good friends, I know he really wants that. He is very sweet and is coming to help me with my poor lil fishy. Maybe I can take care of it on my own though. I spent the weekend at Marie's. We had a lot of fun. I cleaned out her bathroom for her so that we can redecorate. I talked to Ryan today. I have the strangest fondness for people. I think he may fly over and visit me...but that is a very small possibility. I cannot believe his parents are leaving. There is something about all those precious memories that will always always have a place in my heart. I mean it makes me tear up...its just so...innocent, and beautiful. ::sigh::
I am really really thirsty. I think I will go get some diet coke about now. Oh I went on another date with Ben. He is so pretty and very very sweet. He is adorable, but for some reason I'm not that into him. Maybe I just need to get to know him better. I dunno, he works hard and is smart, and coaches lil kids' soccer, and makes it to church every Sunday. He is just great. Maybe too great. That's dumb, anyway...I need to get a drink!