...reread...

[superchic515]

"how bout this, instead of explaining me like you said i did sometime i'll explain you. you this ideal situation in your head where you'd love us to be friends where you want us to talk all the time and share all our secrets or whatever. and i'm cool with that i enjoyed when we were like that and when we talked all the time. but now you must face the reality that well thats not who we've been for thats about 2-3months, does this mean that i am no longer you friend, no. you must realize that just like an relationship (even more so) that one where the people don't see each other they need to talk alot and that takes alot of time. and you say that oh yes this is what you want you want us to be the bestest of friends. well thats great i'm all about that and i am willing (and i have) to put the time in and talk to you and chat to the wee hours of the morning. and you constantly say that yes oh yes this is what i want, and in your head you believe this. but what you forget is that oh yeah, i have this thing called a life where i go and hang out with all these people and have fun and i'm very busy and maybe talking every day or even ever other day isn't possible because i'm not home and i don't have a phone. and to be "close" friends with me thats what its takes, sorry but for some reason i don't feel compelled to share my deep dark secrets with someone i talk to once a week. i am not bitter about this...i cannot sour, it just the facts that your very busy and if you want to make time you will, if not thats fine, but you can't expect in our 30minute conversations a couple times a week for me to talk about anything more than small talk or for it to be anything like when we talked every day for hours. and i don't mean to hurt you(not sure how i have) i am availible all the time i have a cellphone call me at will and i leave my aim on 24/7 so you can leave a msg, my availiblity is not an issue. and its not like i was like hey cherie read my im's, she wasn't being very blantant about it but i could tell she was lookin on my screen so i informed u of that because i know you don't want her knowing things. but you need to explain to me how i hurt you, because i'm not really sure."

I am confused. Maybe I just need to pray about it. AGAIN.