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so my second attempt at sleep has failed. Eck, this sucks. I will get up and sit on the computer for a while and i'll get sooo tired and my eyes will burn..then i'll go to bed..and im immediately wide awake. I just start thinking and thinking and keep thinking and then i awake and cant make my mind stop thinking long enough to fall asleep.
damnit to thinking.
fuck thinking.
being awake sucks but i cant fall asleep.
i just..ugh..don't understand anything..and i dont understand why things continue to be the way they are.
I wish Shawn was online to talk to me...he's such a great person to vent to.
The only other person I have to talk to anymore is Jennifer..sometimes.
I can't cry to the only person i've ever been able to cry to anymore...
damnit to thinking.
fuck thinking.
being awake sucks but i cant fall asleep.
i just..ugh..don't understand anything..and i dont understand why things continue to be the way they are.
I wish Shawn was online to talk to me...he's such a great person to vent to.
The only other person I have to talk to anymore is Jennifer..sometimes.
I can't cry to the only person i've ever been able to cry to anymore...