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Saying good-bye is a hard thing to do. I've had to do it a couple of times this week when I didn't want to but I guess that gives us something to look forward to. Besides, I'm getting to the point where I want to go back to Cornell simply for the fact that I really really want something to do. But I'm beginning to, like I had anticipated, be ok with all of this. There are a few ways to look at this that I hadn't really seen before. For example, one of my reasons for not wanting to leave was who I was leaving behind, but yet I realized that this is an opportunity to create the deep close relationships that I have here with people out there. I have some amazingly close friends, some from 7 years of growing up together and some from less than a year. But everyone in Ithaca is a relationship in progress, most even more so then the ones here. So instead of worrying about having to leave, I get to leave to be with those people for two months and then I get to come back and enjoy everyone else's company who is here. I'll be the first to admit that I am far less mature than I would like to think I am and these moments of contented understanding are only going to last for a moment before something new (or maybe old) will change all that and my ok-ness fades. However, for now, it exists.
I know this is a lame way to do this but for those who I don't get to say this in person, thank you for this break. It has been awesome. I get to come back for spring break which will be so much more manageable a distance for me and hopefully when I return we can pick up where we left this one. But like Tim said, we're living two lives for a while, and each change is a break from one and a call to the other. If I had it my way, everyone would end up living on the same block when we're older, our kids would be a (good) gang and I could surround myself with those I know and love best, but that will never happen. All the more reason to create these relationships with everyone I can, maybe my block will be that close. All in all, I think, dare I say it, I'm ready.
*Raises champagne glass* Till the nostalgia runs dry and the friendships die....*coughcheesycough*.....
I know this is a lame way to do this but for those who I don't get to say this in person, thank you for this break. It has been awesome. I get to come back for spring break which will be so much more manageable a distance for me and hopefully when I return we can pick up where we left this one. But like Tim said, we're living two lives for a while, and each change is a break from one and a call to the other. If I had it my way, everyone would end up living on the same block when we're older, our kids would be a (good) gang and I could surround myself with those I know and love best, but that will never happen. All the more reason to create these relationships with everyone I can, maybe my block will be that close. All in all, I think, dare I say it, I'm ready.
*Raises champagne glass* Till the nostalgia runs dry and the friendships die....*coughcheesycough*.....