and it was called yellow
is it okay to say that prom wasnt amazing without sounding mope?
it was kind of an expensive let down, but whatever.
last year i had like a whole page of memories but i really don't have much to say about last night.
days are kind of just anticlimactic now, even when i don't expect much.
today matthew asked if i went on vacation because he noticed my tan. and he said that my nails looked nice. haha omg, get in the jar nowww.
me and kerry spread joy today and i loved it. we could have spread more but some people just didnt seem interested. haha, it was good times though.
i thought last night would be like, "things arent so bad after all" and it def wasnt. i hate that i get my hopes up over such dumb things.i'm trying not to say things that will make me look dumb, but the point of the story is that i'm upset and have no one to talk to about it. thats kind of the point anyway...more like, i thought i did but i didntttt. every time...now im starting to say the things that i dont want to be saying, haha...so i'm gonna stop.
you know what i can't stand though? being lied to when everything is already a mess. especially when the truth really wouldnt even be that bad.
annnd being caught in the middle of drama that is not mine, and having to feel like i'm letting someone down no matter what i do just because i want nothing to do with anyones issues. i don't even want to deal with my own issues, and i'm not. THATS WHAT I DO...i turn myself off, and it doesnt work but neither does anything else and even when people act like they care that i'm having a hard time with everything they don't , sooo whatever. that wasnt as depressed as it sounded. haha, its late and i'm tired.
summer vacation. crazy. lets go somewhere.
it was kind of an expensive let down, but whatever.
last year i had like a whole page of memories but i really don't have much to say about last night.
days are kind of just anticlimactic now, even when i don't expect much.
today matthew asked if i went on vacation because he noticed my tan. and he said that my nails looked nice. haha omg, get in the jar nowww.
me and kerry spread joy today and i loved it. we could have spread more but some people just didnt seem interested. haha, it was good times though.
i thought last night would be like, "things arent so bad after all" and it def wasnt. i hate that i get my hopes up over such dumb things.i'm trying not to say things that will make me look dumb, but the point of the story is that i'm upset and have no one to talk to about it. thats kind of the point anyway...more like, i thought i did but i didntttt. every time...now im starting to say the things that i dont want to be saying, haha...so i'm gonna stop.
you know what i can't stand though? being lied to when everything is already a mess. especially when the truth really wouldnt even be that bad.
annnd being caught in the middle of drama that is not mine, and having to feel like i'm letting someone down no matter what i do just because i want nothing to do with anyones issues. i don't even want to deal with my own issues, and i'm not. THATS WHAT I DO...i turn myself off, and it doesnt work but neither does anything else and even when people act like they care that i'm having a hard time with everything they don't , sooo whatever. that wasnt as depressed as it sounded. haha, its late and i'm tired.
summer vacation. crazy. lets go somewhere.