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today is the absolute longest day of my life...but its a good one.
school was like two days crammed into one and then right to dance, which feels like a week ago.
i got so much good stuff today. dad got me a digital camera and printer and photo paper as a graduation gift, but on time for senior weeeeek. whooo, good times.
i got some good money and nice little certificates and whatnot at awards night...no french paperweight though, which i'm PISSED about...and i'm totally saying something to ms williams tomorrow. haha just wait.
so of course i got home at like 10:30 or something ridiculous like that, thinking my psych poster would be no big deal...umm yeah i'm gonna be up all night... haha so just took a shower and now i'm taking a little break :)
no school on friday because i said so.
this week should have been over about 300 years ago, so tomorrow is my friday and then i am staying home to sleep and clean and do my crazy projects.
so all these projects about who i am seemed a little ridiculous at first...especially humanities, cause i was like "psssh, i so havent changed since freshman year. i'm totally the same person" and then i started writing my freshman entry thing and i was like whooooa there...i have changed a lot. weird that i didn't realize that i had no idea who i was freshman year...not that i know i do now or anything, but i've realized a lot about myself, and i've changed a lot, kind of without even noticing. crazy.
i almost feel like most of the change took place this year, which is weird because it feels like i havent even had that much time to change but mannn i dont know, being forced to think about myself makes me crazy.
i was reading like real-live journal entries from earlier this year and i realized what a dumbass i am. like, looking back on everything i wrote i'm like, "you naive little fuck!!" i was so clueless to things that were right in front of me! and i was so ridiculous in justifying things that i did that were clearly stupid! i think that being in the moment clouds my judgement a lottt, and reading what i had to say about situations at the time that they were actually happening is crazy because it makes me feel dumb.
i feel like obviously if i can always look back and call myself an idiot its probably not going to change, which means i'm being naive right now, not that i know what about but its annoying to think that someday ill look back at something i did today and be like, "you idiot...why?"
i love that its 1 am and i make abssssolutely no sense.
i need to do psych.
but first...
these are things i need to do in the very near future (like tomorrow or something)
-return that effing library book so that they stop saying my name on the announcements and i dont have to talk to librarians in the lunch line
-clean my room
-make my psych box and humanities thing
-PUT AN EFFING TAP ON THE HEEL OF MY TAP SHOE because its made a wooden noise since like october, which totally defeats the purpose of it being a tap shoooe. and i could also use some new jazz shoes, because mine have a hole in the toe...like i can see my sock. and also i need ballet shoes. DAMN. oh and tights...motherrrr....
-develop my pictures from italy...hmm or maybe i won't. i don't really have any money.
-buy shoes for prommm!! and a purse? damn, nothing is going to match my dress.
-pay for all that dumb stuff that needs to be paid for, like the banquet and all night party and everything. with my no money.
-get some community service hours turned in. hahaha, ummm judy?
okay thats good for now. haha, definetly why i'm staying home on friday.
and also because this stupid mcas schedule needs to suck it. my last week of school and my senior study is just taken away for reasons that i absolutely dont understand.
oh my god. do the freaking psych poster, loser!
school was like two days crammed into one and then right to dance, which feels like a week ago.
i got so much good stuff today. dad got me a digital camera and printer and photo paper as a graduation gift, but on time for senior weeeeek. whooo, good times.
i got some good money and nice little certificates and whatnot at awards night...no french paperweight though, which i'm PISSED about...and i'm totally saying something to ms williams tomorrow. haha just wait.
so of course i got home at like 10:30 or something ridiculous like that, thinking my psych poster would be no big deal...umm yeah i'm gonna be up all night... haha so just took a shower and now i'm taking a little break :)
no school on friday because i said so.
this week should have been over about 300 years ago, so tomorrow is my friday and then i am staying home to sleep and clean and do my crazy projects.
so all these projects about who i am seemed a little ridiculous at first...especially humanities, cause i was like "psssh, i so havent changed since freshman year. i'm totally the same person" and then i started writing my freshman entry thing and i was like whooooa there...i have changed a lot. weird that i didn't realize that i had no idea who i was freshman year...not that i know i do now or anything, but i've realized a lot about myself, and i've changed a lot, kind of without even noticing. crazy.
i almost feel like most of the change took place this year, which is weird because it feels like i havent even had that much time to change but mannn i dont know, being forced to think about myself makes me crazy.
i was reading like real-live journal entries from earlier this year and i realized what a dumbass i am. like, looking back on everything i wrote i'm like, "you naive little fuck!!" i was so clueless to things that were right in front of me! and i was so ridiculous in justifying things that i did that were clearly stupid! i think that being in the moment clouds my judgement a lottt, and reading what i had to say about situations at the time that they were actually happening is crazy because it makes me feel dumb.
i feel like obviously if i can always look back and call myself an idiot its probably not going to change, which means i'm being naive right now, not that i know what about but its annoying to think that someday ill look back at something i did today and be like, "you idiot...why?"
i love that its 1 am and i make abssssolutely no sense.
i need to do psych.
but first...
these are things i need to do in the very near future (like tomorrow or something)
-return that effing library book so that they stop saying my name on the announcements and i dont have to talk to librarians in the lunch line
-clean my room
-make my psych box and humanities thing
-PUT AN EFFING TAP ON THE HEEL OF MY TAP SHOE because its made a wooden noise since like october, which totally defeats the purpose of it being a tap shoooe. and i could also use some new jazz shoes, because mine have a hole in the toe...like i can see my sock. and also i need ballet shoes. DAMN. oh and tights...motherrrr....
-develop my pictures from italy...hmm or maybe i won't. i don't really have any money.
-buy shoes for prommm!! and a purse? damn, nothing is going to match my dress.
-pay for all that dumb stuff that needs to be paid for, like the banquet and all night party and everything. with my no money.
-get some community service hours turned in. hahaha, ummm judy?
okay thats good for now. haha, definetly why i'm staying home on friday.
and also because this stupid mcas schedule needs to suck it. my last week of school and my senior study is just taken away for reasons that i absolutely dont understand.
oh my god. do the freaking psych poster, loser!