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being nervous is the worst!i fell asleep after school with mikey yelling at me every ten minutes to get out of bed...and at like ten past 4 i went to the high school for my interview at 430.
the interviews were running really late and everyone was all dressed up (who knew?) so i ran home and changed and went back. my interview was at like 5 and i seriously thought i was going to walk in there and throw up all over the floor.
but it went really well... they asked me where i was going with my life and i was like "honestly, i can't even pretend to know...but i know whats important to me and right now i'm just trying to piece it all together" haha i was like, screw lying...i'll just tell them i have no idea where my life is going...and they said they liked it! haha and they asked me about italy so i just told them how amazing it was, haha i think i used the words "religion is a pretty huge part of my life" :P
so there were a couple other questions that weren't hard to answer but then i think they thought that my moms salary was my salary and they wanted to know how much of it i had saved and i was like uhh none of it...haha, and then i realized that either they read the sheet wrong or i wrote it wrong but it was too late so i'm kind of just hoping they realize later and give me moneyyy.
so then i was shaking on the way home because when things make me nervous i like push the nerves away so that i can get through whatever i need to do and then as soon as its over i like make up for all the fear i should have had... haha except that my leg was definetly going crazy the whole time i was talking to them too...
but i think i looked calm enough.
so on my way home i got a babysitting job for the 2 beautiful kids down the street. their mom was like "yeah i see you a lot..." so i gave her my number and whatnot...but the kids are like the most precious little beings ever. like one time their mom let them out of the car at the end of the street and they ran along side her and she drove all slow so that they stayed together and it reminded me so much of being little that i wanted to steal them, and when they got to their driveway the brother was like, "okay, you take two i take two!" and they took the trash barrels inside...i dont know why that was so cute but it was. talking to their mom made me excited.
such a productive day.
except i feel way sick and all i want to do is sleep.
i'm thinking about it...i'm thinking about just not studying for psych and getting a 1 and being okay with that. but i really know nothing at all and i think i'm going to hate myself if i dont learn something. uugh i'm so over school. if it weren't for that english thesis defense thing school would be like over tomorrow. damn. soon enough though.
hahahaha so by the way, i got an a on my humanities stp. that made me laugh really hard, i think because i was trying to not feel so guilty about totally not deserving that. honestly, i've written french journals better than that thesis. i've probably spent more time on french journals too. haha oh welllll.
so i forgot the best part of my day. presents!!! hahaha, play dough, bubbles, candy, markers and a little picture from ms kaz and like a 30 page write up of shakesperean analysis that fetbroth thought i would enjoy. haha he made two copies and gave them to neylon to give to me and inna. like pure, handwritten shakespearean analysis. he knows i'm busy right now but he thinks i'll enjoy it and wants me to file it until i have time to read it. hahaha, i'm really gonna miss fetbroth.
i'm about to eat spaghetti and play with my new toys. noooo psych.
the interviews were running really late and everyone was all dressed up (who knew?) so i ran home and changed and went back. my interview was at like 5 and i seriously thought i was going to walk in there and throw up all over the floor.
but it went really well... they asked me where i was going with my life and i was like "honestly, i can't even pretend to know...but i know whats important to me and right now i'm just trying to piece it all together" haha i was like, screw lying...i'll just tell them i have no idea where my life is going...and they said they liked it! haha and they asked me about italy so i just told them how amazing it was, haha i think i used the words "religion is a pretty huge part of my life" :P
so there were a couple other questions that weren't hard to answer but then i think they thought that my moms salary was my salary and they wanted to know how much of it i had saved and i was like uhh none of it...haha, and then i realized that either they read the sheet wrong or i wrote it wrong but it was too late so i'm kind of just hoping they realize later and give me moneyyy.
so then i was shaking on the way home because when things make me nervous i like push the nerves away so that i can get through whatever i need to do and then as soon as its over i like make up for all the fear i should have had... haha except that my leg was definetly going crazy the whole time i was talking to them too...
but i think i looked calm enough.
so on my way home i got a babysitting job for the 2 beautiful kids down the street. their mom was like "yeah i see you a lot..." so i gave her my number and whatnot...but the kids are like the most precious little beings ever. like one time their mom let them out of the car at the end of the street and they ran along side her and she drove all slow so that they stayed together and it reminded me so much of being little that i wanted to steal them, and when they got to their driveway the brother was like, "okay, you take two i take two!" and they took the trash barrels inside...i dont know why that was so cute but it was. talking to their mom made me excited.
such a productive day.
except i feel way sick and all i want to do is sleep.
i'm thinking about it...i'm thinking about just not studying for psych and getting a 1 and being okay with that. but i really know nothing at all and i think i'm going to hate myself if i dont learn something. uugh i'm so over school. if it weren't for that english thesis defense thing school would be like over tomorrow. damn. soon enough though.
hahahaha so by the way, i got an a on my humanities stp. that made me laugh really hard, i think because i was trying to not feel so guilty about totally not deserving that. honestly, i've written french journals better than that thesis. i've probably spent more time on french journals too. haha oh welllll.
so i forgot the best part of my day. presents!!! hahaha, play dough, bubbles, candy, markers and a little picture from ms kaz and like a 30 page write up of shakesperean analysis that fetbroth thought i would enjoy. haha he made two copies and gave them to neylon to give to me and inna. like pure, handwritten shakespearean analysis. he knows i'm busy right now but he thinks i'll enjoy it and wants me to file it until i have time to read it. hahaha, i'm really gonna miss fetbroth.
i'm about to eat spaghetti and play with my new toys. noooo psych.