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Tired but not out, had a good time going to Panacocha to search for pink river dolphins, been working loads, Lila is finally guiding her first group (finally!). We finally got our wooden paddles done so we will have more independence in the future so that is always a plus. Been taking a lot of photos, need to find some XP OS or a computer with a card reader to dump our photos and get them saved. It appears that this time around its different, i am more balanced in some ways it appears that i have matured in my time away from the forest, the community i chose to be involved with really nourished me in some ways i never thought possible, the nagging feeling to belong to something is gone, i have had a great oppurtunities to be a part of some really amazing things and for that I will always be grateful. Living abroad with a family has its ups and downs but the good part is fucking great. I reminded myself this when Somaya saw her first red howler monkeys today (w00T). Sharing my people is where its at. As much as i am enjoying our time here we will need a break shortly, our emotions are at a all time high as the littlest things seem fucking monumental. Drinking this time around (as for the jungle) is not as intriguing as it used to be, i guess the many years of warring around with alcohol has lost its charm, or maybe i am just getting older about things. Been looking at the young guys drinking around here and just smile, not because i am feeling superior just recognizing where they are at in their journey in life, i often wonder if my elders (spiritual) are doing the same with me. Been accumulating battle scars at a good rate finally got my red bellied pirahna one right where my old machete wound used to be, i guess that ugly nailbed was good for something afterall as it halted the upper set of teeth from shredding my finger. Never trust a drunk aussie with something sharper than a bread knife............