i love you *oh* so well
to answer the question of everyone who was present on the bus today: will there be a livej entry about this? the answer is, evidently so.
i dont really uderstand why boys are like that. or if its even fair to make the generalization that boys are like that, if it is only @#$! who is like that. in any case i dont really understand why. i think it tells a lot about the person, the way they act in three specific circumstances. a. with their inferiors. b. when they are insulted. and c. when they are proved wrong. today, our specimen @#$! did not test very obligingly. and i do not mean to say that i am an inferior. i mean that i b. insulted him, and c. proved him wrong, thereby further insulting him. i guess. now some people might accept their error and move on, just realize that they were wrong but no big deal, we are passed that. @#$! was not so mature. he tried brutal attempts to quiet me and keep me from proving my point, sticking his tongue out, mocking my sincerity, and telling me to "shut the fuck up." when i refused to shut the fuck up he finally quieted himself because it was clear that he was the one who was wrong. now personally, i feel like, so ive told you that you were wrong, and how. so lets move on and get over it, because as i said before, we are passed that. once again, @#$! proves miles less than mature. as he gets off the bus he puts out his hand and says something to the effect of "ok so i thought about what you said and i realized okay w/e you made a valid point" or that was what it was going to be. and easygoing as i like to think of myself, i reached out to give him a high five of sorts to kinda signify agreement that, yea okay no hard feelings. but before i could really finish that thought he ices me and says in the most you-idiot tone ever, "you crazy flaming ugly cunt etc etc, what the fuck were you thinking i dont give a fuck what you say, etc etc etc, insult insult insult, i think im cool, you suck" and ill be honest, i did not see that one coming.
so that leaves me there thinking glad you care so much. because if he really hadnt cared, than he would have felt the need to "put me down" to try to get an ego boost. AND spent all bus-ride, quiet in his seat, thinking up how he would "dis" me. and really, i dont care and im not really offended because none of what he said was true. im not crazy, flaming (wtf), ugly or a cunt and he does care despite his "persuasive" speech about how little my opinion means to him. and they say an insult only hurts if you find truth in it. so miraculously, i really am not feeling very hurt. i just dont. but the only thing i regret is the chance that maybe he got off the bus thinking that he had hurt me in anyway. that he could look to his friend and say "did you see that? i totally shot that bitch down!"
because i am still standing.