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I am a mess.
instead of being thankful to my Father for all He's done, I look away simply because "I'm not feeling it". I need to stop letting my emotions rule my flesh. Emotions, after all. won't save me from anything. Things around here seem to just go from bad to worse, actually, this is more like a disk that constantly skips. I know this song. Sometimes I wonder what is God's purpose in this, what is this meant to teach me? All I can think of now a days is, how am I gonna make it? Im spiritually weak, my faith is nowhere near where it should be. It's a pity really, I have seem God's miracles around me time and time again yet i still have this lingering doubt in my heart. I'm foolish to think that I am capable of anything without Him, I realize that.
I don't even know how to put this.
i know He is with me always, I know He is real, I KNOW HE is LORD, I know all these things but the enemy still has this grip on me. I have tried, I really have, to seek the Lord but when my faith seems the strongest, I fall. I don't know what to do. I mean, there is fire in me, I know it, I feel it, I just wish it I had the strength to make it come through.
I desperately need the Lord on my side. In every aspect of my life I fail, I need Him to BE for me! I don't want to fail Him. I am desperate, and though i constantly sin in the eyes of my Lord, I kNOW He has something GREAT planned for me! It's sort of complicated the way i know that I'm not a nothing, yet the enemy never lets me forget that I can fail at any time. My Savior will deliver me if only I can give Him what is already His, Lord rid me of myself! I need you to take me, brake me, mold me LORD!
instead of being thankful to my Father for all He's done, I look away simply because "I'm not feeling it". I need to stop letting my emotions rule my flesh. Emotions, after all. won't save me from anything. Things around here seem to just go from bad to worse, actually, this is more like a disk that constantly skips. I know this song. Sometimes I wonder what is God's purpose in this, what is this meant to teach me? All I can think of now a days is, how am I gonna make it? Im spiritually weak, my faith is nowhere near where it should be. It's a pity really, I have seem God's miracles around me time and time again yet i still have this lingering doubt in my heart. I'm foolish to think that I am capable of anything without Him, I realize that.
I don't even know how to put this.
i know He is with me always, I know He is real, I KNOW HE is LORD, I know all these things but the enemy still has this grip on me. I have tried, I really have, to seek the Lord but when my faith seems the strongest, I fall. I don't know what to do. I mean, there is fire in me, I know it, I feel it, I just wish it I had the strength to make it come through.
I desperately need the Lord on my side. In every aspect of my life I fail, I need Him to BE for me! I don't want to fail Him. I am desperate, and though i constantly sin in the eyes of my Lord, I kNOW He has something GREAT planned for me! It's sort of complicated the way i know that I'm not a nothing, yet the enemy never lets me forget that I can fail at any time. My Savior will deliver me if only I can give Him what is already His, Lord rid me of myself! I need you to take me, brake me, mold me LORD!