Hi, remember me?
And so we meet again. I am sorry for jumping ships and making a Tumblr.. I don't know what it is but Tumblr does not compare to you, LJ. I think the option to just put a picture or a quote has turned me a superficial blogger. Yesterday I was notified that it was my one year anniversary of making a Tumblr. I read through the the entries I had in Tumblr and there's not really any depth compared to the entries I have in here. So with that said I am back for good (:
Colin and I broke up so it's been kinda rough. Even if we don't work out I know we're still gonna be friends. He was my best friend and we did everything together. Getting used to flying solo is just going to take awhile. These last couple of days I have been just an emotional wreck, crying myself to sleep. I have not cried in a while so it felt good to just let it all out. Now I am all cried and left with this empty feeling. This may sound crazy but I kind of like feeling this way. Don't get me wrong, I am sad and can't wait for this feeling to be gone. Buuuut for now I am going to enjoy it until it passes; thats really the only way to get through it. At first I tried to repress my emotions but then that just lead me to cry even more. Suppressing and denying emotions will only make it worse and can lead to depression and anxiety. People are emotional creatures so we have to allow ourselves to be emotional. A day without emotion is impossible to imagine. Everyday we feel dozens of emotions; the excitement of a receiving an A on an exam, the boredom of class, or the grief of being heartbroken. I am usually a happy person so feeling this way once in a while is kinda nice. I read somewhere that the more emotions we have, the more colorful our life experience will be. I definitely added a splash of color this weekend. Wahh wa wa emo emo emo.
I'm really excited to start writing in here again. I want to update more (especially more than just emo shit) but it's 4 in the morning and I should make an attempt to sleep. Class at 10:30 boooooo!
Missed you (:
I'm glad you're still here to listen to my silly stories.
Colin and I broke up so it's been kinda rough. Even if we don't work out I know we're still gonna be friends. He was my best friend and we did everything together. Getting used to flying solo is just going to take awhile. These last couple of days I have been just an emotional wreck, crying myself to sleep. I have not cried in a while so it felt good to just let it all out. Now I am all cried and left with this empty feeling. This may sound crazy but I kind of like feeling this way. Don't get me wrong, I am sad and can't wait for this feeling to be gone. Buuuut for now I am going to enjoy it until it passes; thats really the only way to get through it. At first I tried to repress my emotions but then that just lead me to cry even more. Suppressing and denying emotions will only make it worse and can lead to depression and anxiety. People are emotional creatures so we have to allow ourselves to be emotional. A day without emotion is impossible to imagine. Everyday we feel dozens of emotions; the excitement of a receiving an A on an exam, the boredom of class, or the grief of being heartbroken. I am usually a happy person so feeling this way once in a while is kinda nice. I read somewhere that the more emotions we have, the more colorful our life experience will be. I definitely added a splash of color this weekend. Wahh wa wa emo emo emo.
I'm really excited to start writing in here again. I want to update more (especially more than just emo shit) but it's 4 in the morning and I should make an attempt to sleep. Class at 10:30 boooooo!
Missed you (:
I'm glad you're still here to listen to my silly stories.