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Too much time to think! Grargh!
When I spend too much time in bed, and I oversleep, I get really distorted. I detach.
It's like being high, kinda.
You know the sense of understanding you get when you do mushrooms, where the world just gets simple all of a sudden and you realize you already know everything you need to to judge your own situation? Then, when it wears off you realize that your judgements were actually wrong?
Well it hasn't worn off yet, so right now, everything still seems to make sense.
I consider sometimes asking out this one guy I hang out with, but then I'll be lying there thinking, "I can't picture myself falling in love with this guy."
It's true, I can't. Not with anyone, really.
There have been two people in my life that I have dated, that I could actually see myself falling in love with. With one of them I was right, and I did, and the other, it sorta ended after like, a week.
The latter ended up being, as well as dating, one of my best friends, the former wore itself down to nothing, and I don't know where the fuck I am going to find another Fou or Bryden.
*shudder*
I don't like using that comparison. Fou is like a brother to me now, and it's weird to think that I had feelings like that for him before.
He does have the same essence about him that Bryden does though, so if I have a "type", that essence would be it. I can't explain what it is though, because I can't think of any actual similiarities between the two.
The good news is though, that I went from being obsessed with fou, to being his friend as if nothing ever happened.
You can probably see where I am going with this.
What sucks is that it took him dating someone else for me to get over him. And it took me dating someone else.
UGH, NO MORE THINKING. AT LEAST NOT ABOUT THIS.
When I spend too much time in bed, and I oversleep, I get really distorted. I detach.
It's like being high, kinda.
You know the sense of understanding you get when you do mushrooms, where the world just gets simple all of a sudden and you realize you already know everything you need to to judge your own situation? Then, when it wears off you realize that your judgements were actually wrong?
Well it hasn't worn off yet, so right now, everything still seems to make sense.
I consider sometimes asking out this one guy I hang out with, but then I'll be lying there thinking, "I can't picture myself falling in love with this guy."
It's true, I can't. Not with anyone, really.
There have been two people in my life that I have dated, that I could actually see myself falling in love with. With one of them I was right, and I did, and the other, it sorta ended after like, a week.
The latter ended up being, as well as dating, one of my best friends, the former wore itself down to nothing, and I don't know where the fuck I am going to find another Fou or Bryden.
*shudder*
I don't like using that comparison. Fou is like a brother to me now, and it's weird to think that I had feelings like that for him before.
He does have the same essence about him that Bryden does though, so if I have a "type", that essence would be it. I can't explain what it is though, because I can't think of any actual similiarities between the two.
The good news is though, that I went from being obsessed with fou, to being his friend as if nothing ever happened.
You can probably see where I am going with this.
What sucks is that it took him dating someone else for me to get over him. And it took me dating someone else.
UGH, NO MORE THINKING. AT LEAST NOT ABOUT THIS.