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Wow, ok, so, just felt like sharing here.
I just got back from church.
It was supposed to be an hour long service, because it's new years day, and George didn't want to keep us from our holiday.
It ended up running just over two hours, so there would be plenty of time for God to speak to me... about virtually everything I needed to hear.
During the "praise report" segment of our program, Judy started talking about closure. God had spoken this word to her, closure.
Closure is what I am seeking, what I have been praying for, and what I thought God wasn't willing to give me.
It was a small coincidence at that point but then she continued.
"God wants us to draw near to him. God will draw near to you, if you ask him to. God just wants to meet us halfway."
Haha it sort of reminds me of in Hitch with the whole, "You come 90%, and I come 10."
"Come 90% of the way and hold."
"For how long?"
"As long as it takes."
God was holding that 90% for some time, but I met him there today.
I was losing it, these past few weeks.
I was not acting Christian at all, in fact, I had almost given it up.
I felt so far from God.
I was crying out to him, using those exact words, "draw near to me".
I felt so alone, I needed to feel his love.
Maybe these are just common concepts, coincidences, but then after the service I went up to Judy to tell her the impact that her praise report had on me.
We got to talking, and George's message today was on fellowship, and plugging ourselves into the vine of Jesus Christ, so we talked about maybe meeting up every once in a while, that sort of thing. This is just a side note, because I had been praying for that sort of involvement and George spoke on exactly that, today.
Then Judy and I started talking about relationships, and how hard it is to let go, even when you know that the other person is gone and won't ever love you again.
This is why the lord used her as a beacon for me, today.
She started telling me about her first husband, Matt's dad.
He left her and her kids for another woman.
She cried and cried to the lord to fix things, for three whole years.
Then, she met Jim. Neither of them drink, and didn't then, but they were both at the bar that night, by some weird chance.
They met just in time for their first date to be on Valentine's day.
"God knows the timing", she said. Well yes, clearly he does.
She cried out for 3 years.
I cried out for 3 weeks and then gave up.
I started to think that God wasn't there.
Judy told me about the healing that God poured into hers and Jim's life, over their previous hurtful relationships, and I thought to myself, "Wow. That's what I need."
There is another chance waiting for me, god assured me.
He wanted to make that clear to me today, so he used Judy because he knew that I was comfortable talking to her, and he knew that she would have the encouragement I needed.
I got the closure.
7 years dissapeared in an instant.
That is the power of God.
I just got back from church.
It was supposed to be an hour long service, because it's new years day, and George didn't want to keep us from our holiday.
It ended up running just over two hours, so there would be plenty of time for God to speak to me... about virtually everything I needed to hear.
During the "praise report" segment of our program, Judy started talking about closure. God had spoken this word to her, closure.
Closure is what I am seeking, what I have been praying for, and what I thought God wasn't willing to give me.
It was a small coincidence at that point but then she continued.
"God wants us to draw near to him. God will draw near to you, if you ask him to. God just wants to meet us halfway."
Haha it sort of reminds me of in Hitch with the whole, "You come 90%, and I come 10."
"Come 90% of the way and hold."
"For how long?"
"As long as it takes."
God was holding that 90% for some time, but I met him there today.
I was losing it, these past few weeks.
I was not acting Christian at all, in fact, I had almost given it up.
I felt so far from God.
I was crying out to him, using those exact words, "draw near to me".
I felt so alone, I needed to feel his love.
Maybe these are just common concepts, coincidences, but then after the service I went up to Judy to tell her the impact that her praise report had on me.
We got to talking, and George's message today was on fellowship, and plugging ourselves into the vine of Jesus Christ, so we talked about maybe meeting up every once in a while, that sort of thing. This is just a side note, because I had been praying for that sort of involvement and George spoke on exactly that, today.
Then Judy and I started talking about relationships, and how hard it is to let go, even when you know that the other person is gone and won't ever love you again.
This is why the lord used her as a beacon for me, today.
She started telling me about her first husband, Matt's dad.
He left her and her kids for another woman.
She cried and cried to the lord to fix things, for three whole years.
Then, she met Jim. Neither of them drink, and didn't then, but they were both at the bar that night, by some weird chance.
They met just in time for their first date to be on Valentine's day.
"God knows the timing", she said. Well yes, clearly he does.
She cried out for 3 years.
I cried out for 3 weeks and then gave up.
I started to think that God wasn't there.
Judy told me about the healing that God poured into hers and Jim's life, over their previous hurtful relationships, and I thought to myself, "Wow. That's what I need."
There is another chance waiting for me, god assured me.
He wanted to make that clear to me today, so he used Judy because he knew that I was comfortable talking to her, and he knew that she would have the encouragement I needed.
I got the closure.
7 years dissapeared in an instant.
That is the power of God.