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So I'm finishing the last of my college applications.
Scary huh.
Whats even scarier, is how things have changed soooo much since this time freshman year. I mean, it was only 3 years ago, but it feels like 10. It's weird to think back to who your friends were, and what it was like. I feel that over the past few years I have met so many great people, and gotten close to others, that I should be extremely happy, and I mean dont get me wrong, I am. But that doesn't mean I don't regret things. Because upon making new amazing friends, I lost old amazing friends. And I'm usually pretty big on not regretting things, because hey, it's a learning experience. But I feel like things should have been different. I dunno. This year is going by so quickly, and to be honest, I'm scared of change. I'm scared I won't get into my top school, basically the only school I want to go to. I'm scared of GOING to college. I'm scared of moving on from "happy valley". I'm scared of losing touch with my friends. I'm scared if I leave, I won't ever come back. I'm just scared. And it is the most uneasy feeling to feel.
Scary huh.
Whats even scarier, is how things have changed soooo much since this time freshman year. I mean, it was only 3 years ago, but it feels like 10. It's weird to think back to who your friends were, and what it was like. I feel that over the past few years I have met so many great people, and gotten close to others, that I should be extremely happy, and I mean dont get me wrong, I am. But that doesn't mean I don't regret things. Because upon making new amazing friends, I lost old amazing friends. And I'm usually pretty big on not regretting things, because hey, it's a learning experience. But I feel like things should have been different. I dunno. This year is going by so quickly, and to be honest, I'm scared of change. I'm scared I won't get into my top school, basically the only school I want to go to. I'm scared of GOING to college. I'm scared of moving on from "happy valley". I'm scared of losing touch with my friends. I'm scared if I leave, I won't ever come back. I'm just scared. And it is the most uneasy feeling to feel.