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[super_nick]

swallow your words
just like you swalloed my heart.
fight back the tears,
like i fought back and thought
that you were what u said
and you loved me till dead,
then i realized that lies
flow like tears from your eyes

this time ill cut deeper
carve your name into the bone
its over and its not okay.

but i retraced your steps
and i memorized your excuses
and they both broght be back to this blade

in an attempt to escape
i found out that the answer
was buried, beating deep in my chest

so i carved out my heart
from my now bloody body
stared at it
and i saw your eyes.

now im sitting hear crying
fucking heartless and dieing
i lived for a moment like this

i searched in my closet
left my heart on the floor
found the box with the bullets
and slid back the door

i loaded up the awnser
and thought about death
the stillness
the scilence
the self inflicted violence
while counting the beats of my heart.

with a hole in my chest
wareing my blood like a vest
i bit the barrel between my teeth

put my finger on the trigger
and wrote your name on my wall
stared at it and spoke
pulled the trigger then choked

i waited for heaven
but to hell with my hopes.
god never came
im still dead and the same
worthelss and lifless
but real.

the answer is made out of steele.