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my life is just dragging on through the days. I have little to look forward too. my school work just keeps coming, one assignment after another, i never feel acomplished, i never have time to enjoy my work. i never have any time to breathe.
i can't wait until the summer. it will be a clean slate. no more shitty high school.
i am intrigued by the way some people act one way when you're with them, and then differently when they're around others. i hate how everyone tries to be someone their not in order to fit in.
i hate myself because i can't do things for me. WHY CAN'T I?
everytime i think about it, i feel like a failure, and it looms over my head. i want to take care of this "demon" of mine once and for all.
but i know it's going to take work.
and i have no idea what i'll feel when it's over. but i'm sure it will be more satisfying that anything i've ever accomplished.
blah.
i hate feeling this way.
i love the weather right now. i need new shoes.
i can't wait until the summer. it will be a clean slate. no more shitty high school.
i am intrigued by the way some people act one way when you're with them, and then differently when they're around others. i hate how everyone tries to be someone their not in order to fit in.
i hate myself because i can't do things for me. WHY CAN'T I?
everytime i think about it, i feel like a failure, and it looms over my head. i want to take care of this "demon" of mine once and for all.
but i know it's going to take work.
and i have no idea what i'll feel when it's over. but i'm sure it will be more satisfying that anything i've ever accomplished.
blah.
i hate feeling this way.
i love the weather right now. i need new shoes.