Christmas and the Rock Saga part II
Christmas eve day I went to the family get-together in Okemos. Where The Stepmother awaited. If you read my post about how I kidnapped a rock belonging to my mom from my dad's house, and they were both EXTREMELY pissed at me, this is kind of the continuation of that whole ordeal. The Stepmother (Pam) is not speaking to me. She went out of her way to not speak to me, including greeting both my cousins by kissing them on the cheek (which she has never done before) and avoiding me completely. She also offered everyone chocolates and skipped me, after which I left the room to get my own food.
My dad, surprisingly, DID speak to me. He didn't hug me when he saw me, but he did say hello. I bought them both Christmas presents and I also bought a really pretty, expensive white geode in Ann Arbor, which I gave to the both of them to say I was sorry. Pam said nothing about any of it. Neither of them gave me even a measley Christmas card, though I wasn't really expecting anything anyway.
I said I was sorry to my dad and he said that he is chalking it up to a misunderstanding. I told him that I wanted to apologize to Pam and he said that she doesn't see what happened the same way he does, and kind of implied that now would not be a good time to say anything.
This is highly distressing to me. It bothers me immensely when people hate me, especially if I didn't mean to upset them (which is 99% of the time). Sometimes I seem to be incapable of predicting how people are going to react to certain things. I honestly thought that after taking the rock, my dad would ask me about it, I would tell him and explain why I took it, and everything would be okay after that. I did NOT even FACTOR Pam into the equation because I was not, in my mind, doing anything towards her- just my dad. But I like Pam, I don't want her to hate me. I feel absolutely horrible, and now I think that taking the rock was a huge, huge mistake.
I am thinking about writing her a letter and trying to explain...but I don't know if this will help me or hurt me. I can't call her or go over there because I suck at verbalizing apologies...and I SHOULD only be sorry that I upset her- I am happy that my mom has her rock back, even though my dad thinks she didn't want it when he took it. I am not going to give the rock back, that would be stealing from my mom.
*sigh* I'm very upset by this. I don't know what to do. I can only blame myself...I can see why they are angry with me...but I had my reasons at the time, don't my reasons count for anything? Am I wrong or am I right??
My dad, surprisingly, DID speak to me. He didn't hug me when he saw me, but he did say hello. I bought them both Christmas presents and I also bought a really pretty, expensive white geode in Ann Arbor, which I gave to the both of them to say I was sorry. Pam said nothing about any of it. Neither of them gave me even a measley Christmas card, though I wasn't really expecting anything anyway.
I said I was sorry to my dad and he said that he is chalking it up to a misunderstanding. I told him that I wanted to apologize to Pam and he said that she doesn't see what happened the same way he does, and kind of implied that now would not be a good time to say anything.
This is highly distressing to me. It bothers me immensely when people hate me, especially if I didn't mean to upset them (which is 99% of the time). Sometimes I seem to be incapable of predicting how people are going to react to certain things. I honestly thought that after taking the rock, my dad would ask me about it, I would tell him and explain why I took it, and everything would be okay after that. I did NOT even FACTOR Pam into the equation because I was not, in my mind, doing anything towards her- just my dad. But I like Pam, I don't want her to hate me. I feel absolutely horrible, and now I think that taking the rock was a huge, huge mistake.
I am thinking about writing her a letter and trying to explain...but I don't know if this will help me or hurt me. I can't call her or go over there because I suck at verbalizing apologies...and I SHOULD only be sorry that I upset her- I am happy that my mom has her rock back, even though my dad thinks she didn't want it when he took it. I am not going to give the rock back, that would be stealing from my mom.
*sigh* I'm very upset by this. I don't know what to do. I can only blame myself...I can see why they are angry with me...but I had my reasons at the time, don't my reasons count for anything? Am I wrong or am I right??