Moving on - and other random things
So lately, a couple of people have deleted me from their friend's lists. And ya know what? That's completely okay with me. At first I let my feelings get at little hurt, but then I realized that I really don't give a damn. They're both really nice people, and we all seem to be interested in a lot of the same things - but despite all that I could not be more different from them. I was hanging on, though, for a couple of reasons. 1) I thought we might be able to be friends in spite of our differences. But apparently they want friends who are exactly like them; and 2) I'm just really bad at ending things. So I guess what I'm trying to say is that instead of being offended, I should be saying "thank you" to them. So thanks to you both - have nice lives.
On another front, I've recently taken a big step for me. I've made an appointment with a therapist. Apparently I cannot deal with all this stuff that's been going on in the past few years all by myself. Being an incredibly stubborn person, I kept telling myself that I could. But I have been wrong. This isn't going to be easy for me - I hate talking about my feelings in any detail, and I hate crying. It makes me feel weak. I guess I'm going to have to get over that, as I have a feeling that I'm going to be doing a lot of both.
School's almost done. I had to go talk to one of my profs today about a paper I just haven't been able (or interested) in getting into writing. I explained everything (briefly) that was going on in my life, and he was great about it. He's given me an extra 3 weeks to hand it in (as well as to redo something that I also haven't given my all to), and he's basically offered to help me write it. So I have just the one group assignment that's got to be handed in on Monday, and 2 finals to worry about right now. And then I'm free - well, for a few months anyhow.
I'm looking forward to Saturday. Nick's going to be away with the Army (again) and I'm going out with some friends who are graduating this year for well-deserved night of drinking our faces off. Should be a good go.
I've aslo begun a new part-time job as a bookeeper. Not exactly what I want to do with my life, but a good experience ( and a good additon to my resume!)at least.
So that's it for now. Again, for the individuals I was referring to earlier - if you're reading this - I wish you both the best. Have a great life. I know I will.
On another front, I've recently taken a big step for me. I've made an appointment with a therapist. Apparently I cannot deal with all this stuff that's been going on in the past few years all by myself. Being an incredibly stubborn person, I kept telling myself that I could. But I have been wrong. This isn't going to be easy for me - I hate talking about my feelings in any detail, and I hate crying. It makes me feel weak. I guess I'm going to have to get over that, as I have a feeling that I'm going to be doing a lot of both.
School's almost done. I had to go talk to one of my profs today about a paper I just haven't been able (or interested) in getting into writing. I explained everything (briefly) that was going on in my life, and he was great about it. He's given me an extra 3 weeks to hand it in (as well as to redo something that I also haven't given my all to), and he's basically offered to help me write it. So I have just the one group assignment that's got to be handed in on Monday, and 2 finals to worry about right now. And then I'm free - well, for a few months anyhow.
I'm looking forward to Saturday. Nick's going to be away with the Army (again) and I'm going out with some friends who are graduating this year for well-deserved night of drinking our faces off. Should be a good go.
I've aslo begun a new part-time job as a bookeeper. Not exactly what I want to do with my life, but a good experience ( and a good additon to my resume!)at least.
So that's it for now. Again, for the individuals I was referring to earlier - if you're reading this - I wish you both the best. Have a great life. I know I will.