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I feel like I'm loosing touch. Everything is so hard right now. And I am not even talking about school. I feel so seperated from everyone and it is a lot my fault no doubt but then again when is there ever time to do anything. And who wants to talk to me anyway. I guess it's just a feeling of not being needed and that no one really cares. I am having to actually be a grownup, well, I'm trying. Not that I am not a grownup it is just that I am having to make really big decisions lately and if I was just having to make them for myself I could probably do it with no problem. I don't like being uncertain about my future. Not to mention all of the negative feelings people keep sending me. It just makes it all that much harder. It is almost as if people are looking down their noses at us just because it is not the path they would choose for themselves. It is not as if we aren't thinking everything through, trying to figure out what the best plan is. It is almost as if just because they aren't truly happy with their lives they want to make ours miserable too. I am sorry for the folks who actually read this and it was just me venting. I love y'all.