Life can be strange

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Well its been a while since I was last on so I was bored so I thought I would update. The other day was the only day that I can think that really stood out, and I think it will actually stand out for a while. it was the day of my friends execution mmm... errrr... marriage I mean. He is one of my best friends. I have known the guy since the 8th grade and we just hit it off right away and ever since we have been pretty close except as of late cause we never get to see each other. I knew that the marriage was coming but I just couldnt believe that it was actually happening I mean some one close to me my age getting married I thought the idea was crazy. I mean one day I wont but at this time in my life I think it is. That was not even the weirdest part of my day after-wards I went to a party with a bunch of old high school friends of mine. it was awesome at first cause we were just sitting around listening to music and playing drinking games just like the old days being crazy. after a while though everyone started making out around me and it turned into one big fucking orgy I was like what the fuck I went to school with you people and you were never like this if at the time I had told you that you would all fuck each other in the same room doing all kinds of things which I wont go into at this time you would have laughed your ass off. I mean I wasnt really shocked at the sex, but more that I had know all of these people when they were so innocent. I just went outside and drank and smoked cigarettes and looked at the moon and thought. I know I sound like a pussy but so be it I was a little freaked about seeing all my friends doing all kinds of weird sexual things and other things. It was definitely an awakening moment for me. I thought this is growing up I guess, but then I really analyzed it and thought no its not its just trying to be an adult. I mean there is a lot more to it but that would take like 3 hours to write and I am getting tired. Just a very strange day over all. In the news is the Tim Mcveigh execution I usually have strong feelings for an issue one way or the other, but for some reason I can make up my mind on this one. For one thing I think he should have gotten another trial because of the whole with holding documents thing. I do feel strongly about that because it is the law we live by it everyday who is to say we should change it. I mean come on this just proves Mcveighs point about the government being able to do whatever it wants when it wants. On the death penalty thing thats where I straddle the fence. I do think that he was a monster in one way I mean there is no way you can justify killing 168 people. This is how I see the pro death penelty: It is the ultimate punishment, I mean come on it is your life and some one gets to take it whenever they want. could you imagine some one telling you that on June 20th 2002 you are going to die. I mean think about all the time between now and then. There is no way to deny it is the ultimate punishment in some ways. If you were dead you couldnt read this right now you wouldnt see the sun come up tommorow it is a very morbid thought if you ask me and maybe the right punishment for this man, and I dont care what people say about it setting this country back I mean we cant be whimps all our life I mean quit trying to be so P.C. did the people who died in the boming have a choice to live or die? Life in prison is a great punishment also becasue no matter how cold a person is living in prison for the rest of your life knowing you will never get to get out would be a horrible life we take if for granted every day, but imagine never getting to sit up at 4 in the morning playing on the internet like I am now, being told what to do and when to do it every day. Some people say he would never feel any guilt, but I think one day he would he may have been 50 when he did but for every day after he would have to wake up knowing the fact that he killed 168 people and their loved ones will feel pain every day, because some body took their dads moms sons daughters life. and he would be the one with the blood on his hands. Oh well I am just glad its over with (I hope)because I am tired of Oklahoma feeling sorry for itself I mean there is a time to mourn and a time to live and now I think it is time to live.

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