the impossible doesnt exsist
i can't believe all that is happening to me right now. i just can't. because it's so AMAZING!!!!!!! for the first time in such a long time i feel that my hard work is paying off, that i can have it all. keep putting yourself out there and it will happen.
i was orignally a little bummed at the difficulty of being cast in any shows in college. well macbeth opens this weekend and im thrilled to be lady macduff. yes it's no lady macbeth but i had to be called back and get through two seniors to even get this part. gotta start somewhere. plus i get raped and murdered on stage, what is better than that??? i even have bruises all over from all the fight calls we have been doing. SOOOOOOO EXCITED. and ive gotten to work with one of uci's best directors, seriously he is so good. i cannot wait to perform in the show.
secondly, i had originally been in quite a pickle about my summer plans. i knew i wanted to see max and make an europe trip but i also knew i wanted to do something incredible to do with drama. i cant even stand a summer without doing theatre stuff because ive become so undyingly commited i need to stay on the same path if that makes any sense. soooooo i applied to a bunch of places. i was racking my brain to figure out a way to be happy and fufilled relationship and career wise. i found an amazing program with BADA (the british american dramatic academy) they are super hardcore and they have a program at OXFORD UNIVERSITY for over a month where you stay at the school and have classes in every aspect of theatre every weekday from 9-6. so many incredible actors have gone through there, and it looks like freakin hogwarts. so anyway, i wanted to go here more than anything but they audition in europe and all over the usa so i figured i would be incredibly out of my league. so about a month ago i still auditioned but have been trying to make other plans to make me feel better.
I FOUND OUT TODAY THAT I GOT IN. i seriously got in. like WHAT THE FUCK how did i do that? seriously like ive never been in so much complete shock in my life. they want me?? to come to their incredibly amazing program which takes trips to stratford to see the royal shakespeare company's versions of MACBETH and others, which has an ending performance for people such as BEN KINSLEY aND goes on river boat gala dinners annnnnnnd OMG. im going to learn so much its going to be insane. and on the weekends i just take the 30 min train to max and stay with him and he can take the train anytime and stay with me. so for once i get to have both, i really get to fufill my dreams while being with him. for once i dont have to sacrifice. i get to bake my freakin cake and eat it too (i always mess up the saying).
i know this sounds incredibly dramatic but words cant express what this means to me. i want to go right now i am so excited. this is such a positive affirmation of what i can really accomplish. OMMMMMMMMMG. im so shocked that i did this. nothing can ruin life for me right now. amazing friends, amazing weather, amazing classes and school, amazing boyfriend and acting stuff is also amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant believe things are really coming together. granted i need to get a job and make hellllla money for this program but thats just another step up the stairs that ill leap over. yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
seriously, i look back on all the low times where i doubted so much and now i can laugh because anything is possible, it really is. xoxoxoxoxo
i was orignally a little bummed at the difficulty of being cast in any shows in college. well macbeth opens this weekend and im thrilled to be lady macduff. yes it's no lady macbeth but i had to be called back and get through two seniors to even get this part. gotta start somewhere. plus i get raped and murdered on stage, what is better than that??? i even have bruises all over from all the fight calls we have been doing. SOOOOOOO EXCITED. and ive gotten to work with one of uci's best directors, seriously he is so good. i cannot wait to perform in the show.
secondly, i had originally been in quite a pickle about my summer plans. i knew i wanted to see max and make an europe trip but i also knew i wanted to do something incredible to do with drama. i cant even stand a summer without doing theatre stuff because ive become so undyingly commited i need to stay on the same path if that makes any sense. soooooo i applied to a bunch of places. i was racking my brain to figure out a way to be happy and fufilled relationship and career wise. i found an amazing program with BADA (the british american dramatic academy) they are super hardcore and they have a program at OXFORD UNIVERSITY for over a month where you stay at the school and have classes in every aspect of theatre every weekday from 9-6. so many incredible actors have gone through there, and it looks like freakin hogwarts. so anyway, i wanted to go here more than anything but they audition in europe and all over the usa so i figured i would be incredibly out of my league. so about a month ago i still auditioned but have been trying to make other plans to make me feel better.
I FOUND OUT TODAY THAT I GOT IN. i seriously got in. like WHAT THE FUCK how did i do that? seriously like ive never been in so much complete shock in my life. they want me?? to come to their incredibly amazing program which takes trips to stratford to see the royal shakespeare company's versions of MACBETH and others, which has an ending performance for people such as BEN KINSLEY aND goes on river boat gala dinners annnnnnnd OMG. im going to learn so much its going to be insane. and on the weekends i just take the 30 min train to max and stay with him and he can take the train anytime and stay with me. so for once i get to have both, i really get to fufill my dreams while being with him. for once i dont have to sacrifice. i get to bake my freakin cake and eat it too (i always mess up the saying).
i know this sounds incredibly dramatic but words cant express what this means to me. i want to go right now i am so excited. this is such a positive affirmation of what i can really accomplish. OMMMMMMMMMG. im so shocked that i did this. nothing can ruin life for me right now. amazing friends, amazing weather, amazing classes and school, amazing boyfriend and acting stuff is also amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant believe things are really coming together. granted i need to get a job and make hellllla money for this program but thats just another step up the stairs that ill leap over. yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
seriously, i look back on all the low times where i doubted so much and now i can laugh because anything is possible, it really is. xoxoxoxoxo