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i have really stopped journal writing which makes me sad
i used to always write in my hand written journals if not this one too. now i dont do much of either and i realized that i need to start again. its so theraputic for me. i dont have to think about how im writing or what im saying, its just a simple release of all that i feel and think and feel. but then again, livejournal is not the best place to post all of your deepest thoughts. how about some random thoughts-
1. i hate cheaters. this has nothing to do w/ my personal life but in recent times so many people ive met treat cheating like its no big deal. quote said to me the other day "lana not everyone is like you and max. most people cheat as easy as they breathe. u cant be so nieve about it." stop cheating! can people please care enough to not hurt others? i just hate cheaters of all sorts. get some freakin morals, have some self respect. it scares me.
2. dealing with actors of any sorts, as people, as teachers, etc is realllly hard to deal with. more so than normal people, you can never tell if an actor is being real or just....acting. there should be a distinct difference between acting and reality... but many times there isn't and it's hard to tell which is which and what to believe.
3. i love my school. no seriously you dont even know how awesome this place is. i had no idea untill now and im so grateful to be here. ts really working out and im really starting to mold into a confident college student. which rocks!
4. my grad student drama TA from last quarter who is my current mentor and helps me with monologues is AMAZING. no seriously, he is actually AMAZING. the best acting teacher i could have imagined. he takes your acting skill and brings it from like a level 5 to like level 20. its insane how much better my monologues are.
5. im applying for three programs that i can actually afford this summer and are all amazing theatre intensives. AADA's in New York, ACT's in San Fran, and BADA's in oxford. my auditions are coming up. im sooooooooo excited/ realllly nervous.
6. without being emo or lame, but hey its my journal i can say what i want-
i miss my boyfrend like nobodys business. and yes i know ive been saying this for a year and a half but i just really do. ive handled way longer periods of time than this but its just repetitive missing and sad times and its just one of those phases recently where its just really painful. why did i have to fall head over heels in love at age 18 and with a boy across the world? but geeeeeeeez i couldnt live w/o the boy. makes my life so happy once he gets his butt here
7. gangster themed party this weekend= joy! and liz is coming= more joy! but i have more tech to do which means hanging stage lights for 8 hours on friday and 10 on saturday. oh yeah.....
ooookie doke thats all for now. im gonna go keep trying to catch up on old greys anatomy episodes because im getting freakin addicted!
love.
i used to always write in my hand written journals if not this one too. now i dont do much of either and i realized that i need to start again. its so theraputic for me. i dont have to think about how im writing or what im saying, its just a simple release of all that i feel and think and feel. but then again, livejournal is not the best place to post all of your deepest thoughts. how about some random thoughts-
1. i hate cheaters. this has nothing to do w/ my personal life but in recent times so many people ive met treat cheating like its no big deal. quote said to me the other day "lana not everyone is like you and max. most people cheat as easy as they breathe. u cant be so nieve about it." stop cheating! can people please care enough to not hurt others? i just hate cheaters of all sorts. get some freakin morals, have some self respect. it scares me.
2. dealing with actors of any sorts, as people, as teachers, etc is realllly hard to deal with. more so than normal people, you can never tell if an actor is being real or just....acting. there should be a distinct difference between acting and reality... but many times there isn't and it's hard to tell which is which and what to believe.
3. i love my school. no seriously you dont even know how awesome this place is. i had no idea untill now and im so grateful to be here. ts really working out and im really starting to mold into a confident college student. which rocks!
4. my grad student drama TA from last quarter who is my current mentor and helps me with monologues is AMAZING. no seriously, he is actually AMAZING. the best acting teacher i could have imagined. he takes your acting skill and brings it from like a level 5 to like level 20. its insane how much better my monologues are.
5. im applying for three programs that i can actually afford this summer and are all amazing theatre intensives. AADA's in New York, ACT's in San Fran, and BADA's in oxford. my auditions are coming up. im sooooooooo excited/ realllly nervous.
6. without being emo or lame, but hey its my journal i can say what i want-
i miss my boyfrend like nobodys business. and yes i know ive been saying this for a year and a half but i just really do. ive handled way longer periods of time than this but its just repetitive missing and sad times and its just one of those phases recently where its just really painful. why did i have to fall head over heels in love at age 18 and with a boy across the world? but geeeeeeeez i couldnt live w/o the boy. makes my life so happy once he gets his butt here
7. gangster themed party this weekend= joy! and liz is coming= more joy! but i have more tech to do which means hanging stage lights for 8 hours on friday and 10 on saturday. oh yeah.....
ooookie doke thats all for now. im gonna go keep trying to catch up on old greys anatomy episodes because im getting freakin addicted!
love.