To days to come.... all my love to long ago
I have spent the most blissful two days with Tom. Best new years ever.
But
I've just seen the End of Time part 2. Because of RTD's cruel tactics I ended up sobbing about twenty minutes, the moment Wilf tapped the glass. Sobbed and bawled and I've gone through two packs of tissues. And the last line.... not one ounce of comfort! Nine ended up liking himself again and seeing that he was fantastic. Four's death - "It's the end, but the moment has been prepared for." But NO, RTD rips and tears and destroys everything. "I don't want to go". I well and truly despise that Ten/Tennant had to regenerate alone when everyone he met would have been willing to see him off. He started off so happy in season 2 and no he's this wretched, broken smiling loner of his former self. I was actually too busy sobbing into my pillow to notice Matt Smith being sweet.
I was ready for his death though. Because it's only taken me half an hour after I finished watching it. Give me some time and I'll love Matt Smith. I've got 39 Tennant episodes, audio books and novels to whisk myself away into. Inside this fangirl's heart Tennant's Doctor is immortal and I know, I can tell he's had years of travelling in between episodes and companions.
I do know that, so far the scene where the Doctor says he planned with Donna's dad to buy her a lottery ticket I start sobbing. Seriously, when he said "Jeffrey Noble", it was like a switch and I just burst into tears again.
You know you're devastated by Tennant's last episode when even when you watch Time Crash, the frickin' Children in Need Special, watching Ten and Five being happy and wistful sets you off sobbing again. I'll be fine. I just want a hug.
Ps: Just watched the Confidential and still crying. But you know what? When they talking about Matt Smith and showing his scenes I was laughing. He was fab and mad and dashing and charming. I'm still crying my heart out, but I'll be ok.