its been awhile
so i really dont like LJs. no1 really reads or comments and for some1 like that is really personal, this is really useless. but i thought i might as well take a shot one more time and write in it and see what happens.
so lately if u havent already noticed i havent been myself. ive been tired and like emotion-less a lot. i honestly dont sleep nemore, and i have never dreaded going to school this much in a while. it makes me feel worse when people come up to me 10 times a day askin me if im ok, b.c i dont know how to say things in words to peoples face when its about this type of stuff.
clearly i have trust issues. way more then ne1 will ever have or should have at that. and i dont know how to deal with so much going on.
i dont mind talking to people, but it takes a hit to the heart when ur sum1 like me and tryin to talk to sum1, when they realy dont know what to say or do. i feel like an idiot and im embarresed.
at this point i dont care what happens. i think im on my own and i think that if i fuck up anymore im done. but i feel like i have been done for a while and im just living with no purpose. i know i need some kind of help, but i dont think i want it.
im sick of getting people involved in my situations. b.c in the end it hurts me more.
so lately if u havent already noticed i havent been myself. ive been tired and like emotion-less a lot. i honestly dont sleep nemore, and i have never dreaded going to school this much in a while. it makes me feel worse when people come up to me 10 times a day askin me if im ok, b.c i dont know how to say things in words to peoples face when its about this type of stuff.
clearly i have trust issues. way more then ne1 will ever have or should have at that. and i dont know how to deal with so much going on.
i dont mind talking to people, but it takes a hit to the heart when ur sum1 like me and tryin to talk to sum1, when they realy dont know what to say or do. i feel like an idiot and im embarresed.
at this point i dont care what happens. i think im on my own and i think that if i fuck up anymore im done. but i feel like i have been done for a while and im just living with no purpose. i know i need some kind of help, but i dont think i want it.
im sick of getting people involved in my situations. b.c in the end it hurts me more.