worst gift ever...

[suongsa]

I received today in the mail a package from my godparents so eagerly I ripped it open...to find a photo album. Not bad, kinda of special, right? Well, I open it up to find a few pictures of my mom that she had given them along with notes she wrote them and the rest were all the baby pictures they had of me up until my high school graduation-everything that my mom had sent them. So, this doesn't seem too far off from what my mom did which was decide randomly when I was 30 to give me all of my photo albums of me growing up, otherwise she was going to trash them because she was tired of hauling them around when she moved (3 times in the last 30 years!). It seems rather fucked up, actually, that a mother would want to part ways with the photos of her only child while she was still alive. I figured I would get them, but not until she died. Now, my godparents who claim to love me and support me despite my mom's insanity, go and do something quite similar. To top it off, no card...just a sticky note that says "Happy Birthday, you have been a special part of our lives". Am I just missing something here??!!

I guess it isn't quite the worst...just maybe the most screwed up gift since the worst gifts I ever received were from "good friends" and even my former husband in which they continually talk about the gift they got me and it never comes. Then, they pretend like nothing was ever said...no explanations, no apologies. That always hurts :( It's like I would prefer that someone just get a card if they don't have the money and write something meaningful rather than talk about something that they claim they got for me and never give it.

Back to my hole to finish my papers....