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So break has been... good, so far? It has been good, actually. Within forty-eight hours of being in Alaska I had already done something stupid and a little ridiculous. But compared to the last six weeks, I could really give a damn. Some meaninglesness was kind of pleasant. I hung out at a party with some kids from high school whom I was never friends with at the time, so that was a little odd. Good times though. I have spent a lot of time with the family, had a cosy christmas (with halibut and crab, mm mm delicious) and got a lot of books. Books was pretty much everything I got, but they're really cool. Had another little get together with people that I actually hung out with in high school, where they proceeded to debate for half an hour the pros and cons of my stupidity at the last party. Awesome. Retarded, actually, since they got far more worked up about it than I ever did. So yeah....
The best parts of my break so far? Seeing old friends of course, making new friends (new hot friends... okay one new hot friend), seeing my sister happier than ever to be married, eventhough her husband is stuck in Iraq, hanging out with the fam, Foos, do you remember Ezra and Luke? I found Ezra on facebook, it was very exciting to talk to him. Getting two new cds! And getting to know a cd I already had. Neat-o.
But, we know what has been persisting in the back of my mind, don't we? This is the form it is taking right now... I AM TIRED OF GETTING DICKED OVER!
What in the fuck?
So I was... used for six weeks? lied to? It's all very unclear... And sucky. And hard to handle. The thing is... he is not that kind of person, or at least none of us thought so. So you know what that means? That means that there is something wrong with ME. Maybe that's why I feel like I keep getting screwed over. Because actually it's MY fault. I honestly just don't understand. I don't think I ever really understood, but now it's worse. It's worse because I have nothing to go off of. But today was like a god damn slap in the face. It stings, to say the least. So... I guess that's it then?
Again... What the fuck?
The best parts of my break so far? Seeing old friends of course, making new friends (new hot friends... okay one new hot friend), seeing my sister happier than ever to be married, eventhough her husband is stuck in Iraq, hanging out with the fam, Foos, do you remember Ezra and Luke? I found Ezra on facebook, it was very exciting to talk to him. Getting two new cds! And getting to know a cd I already had. Neat-o.
But, we know what has been persisting in the back of my mind, don't we? This is the form it is taking right now... I AM TIRED OF GETTING DICKED OVER!
What in the fuck?
So I was... used for six weeks? lied to? It's all very unclear... And sucky. And hard to handle. The thing is... he is not that kind of person, or at least none of us thought so. So you know what that means? That means that there is something wrong with ME. Maybe that's why I feel like I keep getting screwed over. Because actually it's MY fault. I honestly just don't understand. I don't think I ever really understood, but now it's worse. It's worse because I have nothing to go off of. But today was like a god damn slap in the face. It stings, to say the least. So... I guess that's it then?
Again... What the fuck?