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we fought so hard and now he's done.
so its just me... me and this little boy forever.
and when he askes about his dad i'll tell him the truth
i'll tell him he just wasnt strong enough to fight for him.
we're just waiting for the moment when we have to end it all. he tells me how special i am. how "perfect" i am... for him especially. how beautiful, how "worth-it", and i cant help but remember exactly how special i am... not quite special enough.
despite all of this, i am at peace. i am recieving the biggest gift of my life any day. my very own to pour all of my love all over. the only person to feel my heart from the inside.
i am at peace.
with saying goodbye to T
with recieving a mother's heart- with that comes wisdom
with my fight for my son
with God
any obsticals apart from this seem so insignificant.
This is LIFE.
something it took a baby to teach me...
This is life... this is it.
and we're gonna be fine.
just keep moving.
this is life and i have peace.
so its just me... me and this little boy forever.
and when he askes about his dad i'll tell him the truth
i'll tell him he just wasnt strong enough to fight for him.
we're just waiting for the moment when we have to end it all. he tells me how special i am. how "perfect" i am... for him especially. how beautiful, how "worth-it", and i cant help but remember exactly how special i am... not quite special enough.
despite all of this, i am at peace. i am recieving the biggest gift of my life any day. my very own to pour all of my love all over. the only person to feel my heart from the inside.
i am at peace.
with saying goodbye to T
with recieving a mother's heart- with that comes wisdom
with my fight for my son
with God
any obsticals apart from this seem so insignificant.
This is LIFE.
something it took a baby to teach me...
This is life... this is it.
and we're gonna be fine.
just keep moving.
this is life and i have peace.