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word i'm here i havent eaten in like a week. so busy and when im not running around all i want to do is lay down on my bed. this a.m. i woke up at 3am and watched the pam anderson roast heh it was pretty funny.
but besides the none eating part i feel great the job is going well.. but im extremly anti social with everyne. during lunch i sit out in the truck and read and listen to amy goodman.
feeling frustrated b.c there are no sitters ..basically and so there for there is no living happening.. and i know that im fucking up by not taking advantage of this life happeneing around me... we arent promised tomorrow but its like on the other hand who do i turn to? who will give some of their time for me? the people in my life ... i feel like im very giving toward them.. maybe not enough. eh i dont know theres a reason why im here and all i want to know is why. but its not only the whole lack of living here.. its the kid pressure.. with joe there a whole other elephant to conquer everyday.. but k has her issues too
i need someone in my life who can deal with and without
someone who is patient and kind generous and doesnt put up a front.. no huge egos please.
but besides the none eating part i feel great the job is going well.. but im extremly anti social with everyne. during lunch i sit out in the truck and read and listen to amy goodman.
feeling frustrated b.c there are no sitters ..basically and so there for there is no living happening.. and i know that im fucking up by not taking advantage of this life happeneing around me... we arent promised tomorrow but its like on the other hand who do i turn to? who will give some of their time for me? the people in my life ... i feel like im very giving toward them.. maybe not enough. eh i dont know theres a reason why im here and all i want to know is why. but its not only the whole lack of living here.. its the kid pressure.. with joe there a whole other elephant to conquer everyday.. but k has her issues too
i need someone in my life who can deal with and without
someone who is patient and kind generous and doesnt put up a front.. no huge egos please.