slave to the groove
im feeling so brave lately.. and im wondering why i "was" so damn scared to upset anyone ever.
i just dont want it to pass. i was offered an environmental job.. right at the interview
has never happened to me before.. and i knew this job would make me feel so fulfilled.. i would be able to sleep so much better knowing that i was making a difference. but i couldnt take it bc of the kids.
thus came the mourning period. tons of tears. again. mourning over the burden. i dont expect anyone to help me. but i can not help but feel it would all be better if i did have a little bit of help.
it was good tho.. to be around those people to be immediatly accepted. it changed me..so if it wasnt meant to be..which i dont how much i believe that statment anymore. it did help. i still catch myself saying damn! outloud.. and then i have to quickly realize and cover. so this is me. now. braver but sad about the loss of what i couldve been with this organization. i need a job. but all jobs now seem useless. unfulfilling. but im looking into volunteering so i can feel useful.
i just dont want it to pass. i was offered an environmental job.. right at the interview
has never happened to me before.. and i knew this job would make me feel so fulfilled.. i would be able to sleep so much better knowing that i was making a difference. but i couldnt take it bc of the kids.
thus came the mourning period. tons of tears. again. mourning over the burden. i dont expect anyone to help me. but i can not help but feel it would all be better if i did have a little bit of help.
it was good tho.. to be around those people to be immediatly accepted. it changed me..so if it wasnt meant to be..which i dont how much i believe that statment anymore. it did help. i still catch myself saying damn! outloud.. and then i have to quickly realize and cover. so this is me. now. braver but sad about the loss of what i couldve been with this organization. i need a job. but all jobs now seem useless. unfulfilling. but im looking into volunteering so i can feel useful.