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I'm so tired of not having enough time to do anything well. I actually had a really good lesson for the first time in how long? awhile, yes that's it. I HAD that piece in rep class though. I can do it sooo much better but I havent played infront of people since last jury. I'm one of those people that has to keep performing regularily or I get massive stage fright and shake really badly. It's not that I'm not prepared. I just can't play well when my hands are shaking about half a foot in either direction. Drat it all
but back to the main theme, nothing well. I can't keep up relationships from home well (cept for my boy)I can barely keep up with homework, can't practice nearly enough, can't play any of the various brass or woodwind instruments as well as i want to or know that I can if I had time to put ANy effort into them at all. All in all I just wish that I could stay in college forever and just take my time, not worry about a timeframe or grades and just LEARN as much as I could. Isnt that what this whole thing is about? It just frusterates me that i cant take any class that I want because my schedule is so jam packed with necessary classes. DARN YOU MUSIC EDUCATION!!!
but back to the main theme, nothing well. I can't keep up relationships from home well (cept for my boy)I can barely keep up with homework, can't practice nearly enough, can't play any of the various brass or woodwind instruments as well as i want to or know that I can if I had time to put ANy effort into them at all. All in all I just wish that I could stay in college forever and just take my time, not worry about a timeframe or grades and just LEARN as much as I could. Isnt that what this whole thing is about? It just frusterates me that i cant take any class that I want because my schedule is so jam packed with necessary classes. DARN YOU MUSIC EDUCATION!!!