Here's what you've been missing...
I haven't posted in a while because most of my posts would go like this :
"I don't want to do anything today. So, I didn't. The end."
While I realize this is not a healthy way to live, it's what I've been struggling with for the past few weeks. I have spurts of sunshiney happiness, then something doesn't go my way... or I just don't want to do it, and we're back to square one.
I am acting like SUCH a 2-year old.
In other news, I will be single this weekend. It will be only the SECOND time ever that I've been alone in the house for more than an hour or two at a time. I think I may vacuum in the middle of the night and do laundry in the middle of the day. Scandalous. The house could certainly use BOTH of those. (See above)
Is this depression? I don't feel like the world is closing in on me or anything. I just don't feel like doing crap. Obviously, crap doesn't involve the internet. Maybe I should take a break from the internet. Not entirely plausible since my courses depend on it, but maybe LESS internet. Less farmville, less yoville and less restaurant city. But... I DON'T WANT TOOOOOoooo.
I am a 2-year old. Seriously.
We're off to give my Mom and Dad the dishwasher and stove from the rental house. My Dad actually complained about it. I roll my eyes at him often, then realize we are cut from the same cloth. It saddens me when I catch little bits of my Father's negativity slipping from my mouth. I need to stop that. But... I DON'T WANT TOOOOOooooo!
See my dilemma?
I did work out yesterday, even though I didn't WANT TOOOooooo.
Is that what life becomes when you get older, a series of things you must do, but don't want to? Is that it?
"I don't want to do anything today. So, I didn't. The end."
While I realize this is not a healthy way to live, it's what I've been struggling with for the past few weeks. I have spurts of sunshiney happiness, then something doesn't go my way... or I just don't want to do it, and we're back to square one.
I am acting like SUCH a 2-year old.
In other news, I will be single this weekend. It will be only the SECOND time ever that I've been alone in the house for more than an hour or two at a time. I think I may vacuum in the middle of the night and do laundry in the middle of the day. Scandalous. The house could certainly use BOTH of those. (See above)
Is this depression? I don't feel like the world is closing in on me or anything. I just don't feel like doing crap. Obviously, crap doesn't involve the internet. Maybe I should take a break from the internet. Not entirely plausible since my courses depend on it, but maybe LESS internet. Less farmville, less yoville and less restaurant city. But... I DON'T WANT TOOOOOoooo.
I am a 2-year old. Seriously.
We're off to give my Mom and Dad the dishwasher and stove from the rental house. My Dad actually complained about it. I roll my eyes at him often, then realize we are cut from the same cloth. It saddens me when I catch little bits of my Father's negativity slipping from my mouth. I need to stop that. But... I DON'T WANT TOOOOOooooo!
See my dilemma?
I did work out yesterday, even though I didn't WANT TOOOooooo.
Is that what life becomes when you get older, a series of things you must do, but don't want to? Is that it?