[Corinthiahn]
((I've been writing some old journals for Corinthiahn. It occurred to me that Diederich picked up his journaling habit from Corinthiahn. (In fact, Die barges in on Corinthiahn while he's writing in a journal in one of the scenes I wrote. ^_^ ) Anyhow, I decided to go ahead and type up some of these journal entries, not that anyone not in the family would have the slightest chance of ever seeing them, but whatever.))
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Yelizaveta has given birth to our first child. It's a male, and he appears quite healthy, of an appropriate length and weight. I've named him Diederich Seraphinite Dawnblade. The gemstone name is an homage to Yelizaveta's family, as she comes from a long line of quite notable jewel crafters. Her father has enjoyed the patronage of the royal family.
The first name follows the naming conventions of my own family. It is my father's middle name, and when Diederich has his first son it will take my middle name, Daydelis. I have thus named my future great-grandson Seraphinite, just as my great-grandfather named me Corinthiahn. In this way I have reached forward into the centuries ahead to touch the heir I do not imagine I will ever see. I truly hope I am granted the chance to see Daydelis.
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I don't know if I can stand this pain. I've reached the point of wishing to die. I have too many responsibilities and am not so childish as to end my own life. I especially would not fail Yelizaveta that way. She supports me unlike any other ever has. She is my love, my confidant, my life. I will do anything for her, even suffer this for centuries longer. She deserves no less from me for all she has done. She has made me the man I am today and I owe her everything. Every part of me is hers, including my pain.
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The potions she gives me for the pain... sometimes they work, sometimes they don't... however anything is better than nothing. They make my nightmares a hundred times worse, and sometimes they happen when I'm awake. I see things and hear things that aren't there, I look up and I'm somewhere I don't remember going... She looks after me and keeps me steady, thank the Light. Light knows what would happen otherwise...
I don't know whether it's the potions or the pain that is driving me mad...
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Diederich's 40th birthday was today - the same age I was when my father sent me to join the guard. I'm disturbed by how young this age really is. I look back and assume I was much more developed at the time. Every time I look at him I have flashbacks of the first ten years I was there. Sometimes I completely lose touch with where I really am.
I have every intention of sending Diederich, but not yet. I'll wait until he's a little older... I'll prepare him for it better than I was... It is the pride of our family to serve Quel'Thalas, but it is only cruelty that tempers a soldier into a weapon strong enough for battle. I will give him the strength to face that cruelty myself rather than send him away unprepared... perhaps it is better to endure it first from someone who loves you rather than people who will derive such pleasure from your fear and pain.
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((I have a few more of these written, I'll type them up later.))
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Yelizaveta has given birth to our first child. It's a male, and he appears quite healthy, of an appropriate length and weight. I've named him Diederich Seraphinite Dawnblade. The gemstone name is an homage to Yelizaveta's family, as she comes from a long line of quite notable jewel crafters. Her father has enjoyed the patronage of the royal family.
The first name follows the naming conventions of my own family. It is my father's middle name, and when Diederich has his first son it will take my middle name, Daydelis. I have thus named my future great-grandson Seraphinite, just as my great-grandfather named me Corinthiahn. In this way I have reached forward into the centuries ahead to touch the heir I do not imagine I will ever see. I truly hope I am granted the chance to see Daydelis.
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I don't know if I can stand this pain. I've reached the point of wishing to die. I have too many responsibilities and am not so childish as to end my own life. I especially would not fail Yelizaveta that way. She supports me unlike any other ever has. She is my love, my confidant, my life. I will do anything for her, even suffer this for centuries longer. She deserves no less from me for all she has done. She has made me the man I am today and I owe her everything. Every part of me is hers, including my pain.
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The potions she gives me for the pain... sometimes they work, sometimes they don't... however anything is better than nothing. They make my nightmares a hundred times worse, and sometimes they happen when I'm awake. I see things and hear things that aren't there, I look up and I'm somewhere I don't remember going... She looks after me and keeps me steady, thank the Light. Light knows what would happen otherwise...
I don't know whether it's the potions or the pain that is driving me mad...
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Diederich's 40th birthday was today - the same age I was when my father sent me to join the guard. I'm disturbed by how young this age really is. I look back and assume I was much more developed at the time. Every time I look at him I have flashbacks of the first ten years I was there. Sometimes I completely lose touch with where I really am.
I have every intention of sending Diederich, but not yet. I'll wait until he's a little older... I'll prepare him for it better than I was... It is the pride of our family to serve Quel'Thalas, but it is only cruelty that tempers a soldier into a weapon strong enough for battle. I will give him the strength to face that cruelty myself rather than send him away unprepared... perhaps it is better to endure it first from someone who loves you rather than people who will derive such pleasure from your fear and pain.
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((I have a few more of these written, I'll type them up later.))