Madras weekend
Been to madras. My cousin 'Satya' was getting married there. Weird consciousness, i had. Looks like depression? I haven't ever experienced 'depression' to this level. I wasn't socialising properly. Her friends were all like "Hey, Suraj! Hi!" (seems she has told a lot about me to all her friends). But I was so fscked up that I couldn't talk well to them. One of them (a very sweet person named 'Sarika') even told me that she was disappointed that I wasn't talking to anyone and that I was looking "tired" (unshaved, sullen eyes). Made a conscious effort to meet up with ravi and cheeni. Most of the night was 'okay' until Ravi gave us some humour and pepped us up. Ravi too noted that I look "tired".
update: I gotta explain the 'high' I felt as soon as I landed in madras. Bliss. Yes, it was sticky and sultry and sweaty and what not. But it is Madras. Nothing beats that unexplainable feeling of being back in my "home town". But I'm still not sure if getting to madras 'permanently' will help fix things. ;/
Met my elder cousin (Athai Ponnu!), Kamali, at the marriage. I cannot believe I had a "Crush" (again) on her... The first time I remember having a "crush-like-thing" on her was when I was like 7 years old and she was like 10 or so. Its like I keep seeing her once in 5 years or so at such marriages / ceremonies ...and no matter how "old" she grows, to me, she always seems like the most Beautiful woman ever on earth ever ever... :"> My depression went away temporarily, I felt great, I was putting "kadalai" and was unnecessarily over-curious about her 5 year old son. How I wish I was born "before" her, so I could have claimed whatever "morai" (right) and married her ;) ;) ;) ;)
Sunday Evening, I went out to Odyssey (again, a conscious effort and I forcibly told myself "No, I'm not losing interest in Music") and bought some CDs.
I was eyeing a "Guitar Indian Style" by Prasanna, but it was over-priced (Rs.275/-) and the photo on the cover showed a guitar with a 'single coil pickup'. I never liked the tone of the 'single coil' for Carnatic. Yucky ghamakkams. So dropped it once I saw the D.K.Pattammal CDs.
Return trip was pathetic. big time neck-pain, shoulder pain, sore-throat, etc.,. I woke up late to an "alert" (just 1.25 hours ago). Called up office and told them I would be "late". If I finish the ER diagram and stuff for that design doc and figure out ploticus/r-project/etc.,., i think I'm fine. Today I have to talk to my manager and ask for a "Break". But I'm dead sure, its not "nice" to do so with this on-going project happening. but I will die otherwise, so I don't know. :(
update: I gotta explain the 'high' I felt as soon as I landed in madras. Bliss. Yes, it was sticky and sultry and sweaty and what not. But it is Madras. Nothing beats that unexplainable feeling of being back in my "home town". But I'm still not sure if getting to madras 'permanently' will help fix things. ;/
Met my elder cousin (Athai Ponnu!), Kamali, at the marriage. I cannot believe I had a "Crush" (again) on her... The first time I remember having a "crush-like-thing" on her was when I was like 7 years old and she was like 10 or so. Its like I keep seeing her once in 5 years or so at such marriages / ceremonies ...and no matter how "old" she grows, to me, she always seems like the most Beautiful woman ever on earth ever ever... :"> My depression went away temporarily, I felt great, I was putting "kadalai" and was unnecessarily over-curious about her 5 year old son. How I wish I was born "before" her, so I could have claimed whatever "morai" (right) and married her ;) ;) ;) ;)
Sunday Evening, I went out to Odyssey (again, a conscious effort and I forcibly told myself "No, I'm not losing interest in Music") and bought some CDs.
- D.K.Pattammal - Carnatic Vocal Live - Vol 1 and 2.
- Navya Ragas - composed and rendered by BMK (Rs.45!!!!!!111)
- Swara Dhuni MP3 CD - Instrumental (mostly Nadhaswaram (sheik Chinna Moulana, Namagiri Pettai Krishnan), but also had some rare stuff (something balamanjari and something kokiladhwani, etc.,.) by U.Shrinivas)
I was eyeing a "Guitar Indian Style" by Prasanna, but it was over-priced (Rs.275/-) and the photo on the cover showed a guitar with a 'single coil pickup'. I never liked the tone of the 'single coil' for Carnatic. Yucky ghamakkams. So dropped it once I saw the D.K.Pattammal CDs.
Return trip was pathetic. big time neck-pain, shoulder pain, sore-throat, etc.,. I woke up late to an "alert" (just 1.25 hours ago). Called up office and told them I would be "late". If I finish the ER diagram and stuff for that design doc and figure out ploticus/r-project/etc.,., i think I'm fine. Today I have to talk to my manager and ask for a "Break". But I'm dead sure, its not "nice" to do so with this on-going project happening. but I will die otherwise, so I don't know. :(