Feb 15, 2005 10:56
ive never let my emotions have this kind of physical control over me. i vomited. im crying. i didnt eat. i didnt get out of bed. someone please tell me when i got to be such a fucking typical teenage girl. when i started letting boys punch me in the stomach.
is there something about me that is just inherently not good enough?
if any good can be drawn from this, its that my friends were able to prove once again that they are incredible and caring and compassionate and are capable of reminding me what love is even at my most melodramatic. dan showed up at my door at 9:30 am fully prepared to crawl in bed with me so he could be there to talk when i woke up. kate smuggled homemade cookies and a pint of ice cream past my parents, who think i have the flu. rich just held me for as long as i needed. countless people have jumped to my defense without even knowing the situation. thank you.
since when can i not make it through 10 minutes of french class without crying?
can you base a relationship entirely on love if trust is lacking? how many times can someone hurt you before you need to stop taking it? how many times do they have to apologize before resisting stops being strong and starts being cold?
cheer up, emo kid.