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someone recently told me "you make me feel like there is something new and real in the world. (as odd as that sounds, your raw and genuine nature does it i think)"
when he said it i thought he was quoting song lyrics. it hit me hard. my raw and genuine nature can be such a good things. it can also be so bad. i am working on the first, and trying to delete the latter. i want my raw and genuine nature to meet the needs of the people around me. i want to love people in the right way. i want to make everyone feel like there is something new and real in the world. i let myself get too easily disappointed by failed conversations, missed connections, ect. i just attempted to talk to a friend about relationships and life changes and i got little response. i felt like i didnt mean anything. this is where the red flag is placed. i am going about it alll wrong. i am going to working on contributing rather than getting. i want to get support, reassurance, comfort, ect. but really, i just need to give it. i hope the conversation i had with my friend triggered something good in his heart, and if not, thats okay too. maybe next time.
when he said it i thought he was quoting song lyrics. it hit me hard. my raw and genuine nature can be such a good things. it can also be so bad. i am working on the first, and trying to delete the latter. i want my raw and genuine nature to meet the needs of the people around me. i want to love people in the right way. i want to make everyone feel like there is something new and real in the world. i let myself get too easily disappointed by failed conversations, missed connections, ect. i just attempted to talk to a friend about relationships and life changes and i got little response. i felt like i didnt mean anything. this is where the red flag is placed. i am going about it alll wrong. i am going to working on contributing rather than getting. i want to get support, reassurance, comfort, ect. but really, i just need to give it. i hope the conversation i had with my friend triggered something good in his heart, and if not, thats okay too. maybe next time.