look out, world.
i've been sitting here and reading anne lamott, thinking about my paper on anne lamott, and just pondering life in general on a rotating basis for about 4 hours. and, inspired to a state of contemplation, i decided that now is indeed time to update. i'm not going to belabor you (if anyone actually hasn't given up on me and still checks this) with the tediousness of my life since the last update in february or something like that. instead, i'm just going to start over essentially. reintroduce random parts of myself as who i am right now, 13 days away from college graduation. yes, i'm writing this more for me than for you, but i thought someone might get a kick out of it. so this is me:
i love life. i may not always love everything about it (for example, the papers i'm avoiding or the finals looming next week), but indescribably beauty of the world, of my friends and family, of music, of dancing, of dark chocolate (with less than 99% cocoa, which i learned the hard way), 1:00 theology chats, of roommates, of simply being comfortable with being me, all tend to balance out the bad.
i am SO ready for summer vacation and no homework that it's crazy.
i usually analyze everything about 100 times more than i should/need to. ask me to explain the marlin test sometime.
usually, i would rather listen than talk. but i do like when people are willing to listen. and i love friends who i'm comfortable enough with that every once in awhile, silence is ok.
i am going to be a spartan. anyone who knows me well realizes how strange and terrible that could possibly be, but i'm ok with it! not excited yet. still pretty much scared shitless about the whole thing.
i may have a good gpa and i might be going to a big 10 law school, but really, i have more than my fair share of blonde moments. seriously. it's pretty embarassing.
sunshine, dark chocolate, ice cream, music, and exercise are my drugs of choice. not usually all at the same time. and sangria will work in a pinch.
i am a bad poli sci major. i (almost) never watch the news or read the paper. i've recently discovered that, ideologically speaking, i'm more of a federalist than anything else. i'd still describe myself as slightly right of center, but that's more out of a skepticism that the federal government can actually effectively prescribe solutions for the entire country than anything else.
i have loved deeply and trusted completely, and i have lost in both senses. but, strangely enough, through that whole ordeal, i have learned to admit when i need other people, to acknowledge my own weaknesses, to not care what other people think, to depend more on God (and that a perfectly adequate and complete prayer is sometimes just, "help!"), and to trust my own strength of personality, character, and perserverance. i have learned to love myself, because i am worthy of love. and i've deepened so many other friendships in the last several months. if you're reading this, chances are i love and appreciate you very much, so thanks :).
i am going to miss calvin, a lot actually. as much as i complain and make fun, i really did have an amazing 4 years.
i'm very easily distracted. and that's happening now, so i'm going to wrap this up. if you've read this, thank you so much for wasting your time with me. and if you have anything you feel like adding, feel free to comment/correct/laugh at anything here. happy end of the school year to you all!
i love life. i may not always love everything about it (for example, the papers i'm avoiding or the finals looming next week), but indescribably beauty of the world, of my friends and family, of music, of dancing, of dark chocolate (with less than 99% cocoa, which i learned the hard way), 1:00 theology chats, of roommates, of simply being comfortable with being me, all tend to balance out the bad.
i am SO ready for summer vacation and no homework that it's crazy.
i usually analyze everything about 100 times more than i should/need to. ask me to explain the marlin test sometime.
usually, i would rather listen than talk. but i do like when people are willing to listen. and i love friends who i'm comfortable enough with that every once in awhile, silence is ok.
i am going to be a spartan. anyone who knows me well realizes how strange and terrible that could possibly be, but i'm ok with it! not excited yet. still pretty much scared shitless about the whole thing.
i may have a good gpa and i might be going to a big 10 law school, but really, i have more than my fair share of blonde moments. seriously. it's pretty embarassing.
sunshine, dark chocolate, ice cream, music, and exercise are my drugs of choice. not usually all at the same time. and sangria will work in a pinch.
i am a bad poli sci major. i (almost) never watch the news or read the paper. i've recently discovered that, ideologically speaking, i'm more of a federalist than anything else. i'd still describe myself as slightly right of center, but that's more out of a skepticism that the federal government can actually effectively prescribe solutions for the entire country than anything else.
i have loved deeply and trusted completely, and i have lost in both senses. but, strangely enough, through that whole ordeal, i have learned to admit when i need other people, to acknowledge my own weaknesses, to not care what other people think, to depend more on God (and that a perfectly adequate and complete prayer is sometimes just, "help!"), and to trust my own strength of personality, character, and perserverance. i have learned to love myself, because i am worthy of love. and i've deepened so many other friendships in the last several months. if you're reading this, chances are i love and appreciate you very much, so thanks :).
i am going to miss calvin, a lot actually. as much as i complain and make fun, i really did have an amazing 4 years.
i'm very easily distracted. and that's happening now, so i'm going to wrap this up. if you've read this, thank you so much for wasting your time with me. and if you have anything you feel like adding, feel free to comment/correct/laugh at anything here. happy end of the school year to you all!