the funny thing about nerves is...
"floating upon the surface for the buzz, the buzz, the buzz..." yeah, my internet has been broken. So as I was sitting there in the library looking through magazines but not really looking just stressing out I kept thinking, 'god, why can't i remember what it feels like to not be nervous', and i tried so incredably hard but it just wouldn't work. An hour later I go to the cafateria and Narise (sp?) comes. Talking really fast relieves anxiety. Anyway so that whole time before the audition I just kept thinking "why the fuck am i nervous, my mind isn't stressed out but my body is totally haywire" anyway I just wanted the horribly feeling of nervousness to go away. So the audition happens YAY (except for singing which was only okay), and then it is all gone, and it is the weirdist thing in the world because I can't for the life of me remember what it feels like to be nervous, i can feel excited but it is just impossible to remember what nervous feels like. Now i have major excitement disorder about me and eliza performing our song in Improv. I really think I am going to start taking drugs. That is my thought for the day.