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Today was a most difficult day. I woke up to a very rainy day, and when I took my three deep breaths....I went back to sleep. I met Chris for lunch, and then we walked around Towne Centre, and ended up in Hallmark. There's a lot of Mother's Day things in there, but I guess that is a big DUH!
We stood out side of Hallmark, and I was so frustrated at myself, I could not put my feelings into words. This is one of those moments when all I want to do is cry. Chris went to work, I went home to get ready for work, and put it behind me.
At work I had a voicemail from Chris, he was having a bad day, and I instantly began to worry bout him. I couldn't wait to get cut from the floor, so I could run to Walmart then try to get to Chris before he went home from work.
I made it, however, he left early, so I felt bad that he had sat there all that time waiting on me. The things that were bothering him, I could not fix, and that frustrated me even more. I kept taking deep breaths, at least to just stop myself from crying. We went to get a bite to eat, and we talked about options of things to do. I invited him to my house. I could really use cuddles, and I was hoping it would make him feel better as well. Instead he went home, and I was left to go home to an empty house.
Chris called me shortly after getting home, and I finally lost it, I couldn't keep myself from crying. Breathing wasn't working, and I couldn't pull my thoughts into a single statement.
I failed.
We stood out side of Hallmark, and I was so frustrated at myself, I could not put my feelings into words. This is one of those moments when all I want to do is cry. Chris went to work, I went home to get ready for work, and put it behind me.
At work I had a voicemail from Chris, he was having a bad day, and I instantly began to worry bout him. I couldn't wait to get cut from the floor, so I could run to Walmart then try to get to Chris before he went home from work.
I made it, however, he left early, so I felt bad that he had sat there all that time waiting on me. The things that were bothering him, I could not fix, and that frustrated me even more. I kept taking deep breaths, at least to just stop myself from crying. We went to get a bite to eat, and we talked about options of things to do. I invited him to my house. I could really use cuddles, and I was hoping it would make him feel better as well. Instead he went home, and I was left to go home to an empty house.
Chris called me shortly after getting home, and I finally lost it, I couldn't keep myself from crying. Breathing wasn't working, and I couldn't pull my thoughts into a single statement.
I failed.