I Am Out Here All On My Own
I feel lost today. I am not sure if I am lost in my thoughts, lost in what to do with myself or just want to run away from all of these other people's problems, that for some reason beyond me at the moment, keep becoming mine. I don't think that selfishness, and the inability to deal with your shit, should be rewarded. And don't tell me I am in on the loop when you're just telling me what you plan on doing. I want nothing to do with this loop, with this person's inability, and how the two of you think you got their shit figured out. It's the most un-amusing joke I've had to listen to in a long time.... Listen closely and you won't hear me laughing...
I feel like I am losing a dear friend of mine. She isn't too far off that I can't grab at her wrist, but every time we see each other there is more and more space in between the two of us. When did this first start taking place? I am not sure, I have been searching my brain for the place, time, the original feeling, when it arose. I can't seem to put my finger on it. Maybe because this friend is every changing her self. Maybe she has been just out of reach this whole time... I don't like being here and not knowing what to do.
I think I want to take a vacation from every one, my lover, my friends, my all that is in between. I want the fuck out of here. I can feel the pressure rising. I laughed my ass off last night, but now I am just left feeling drained, confused, and under appreciated. Who's fighting for me?
I feel like I am losing a dear friend of mine. She isn't too far off that I can't grab at her wrist, but every time we see each other there is more and more space in between the two of us. When did this first start taking place? I am not sure, I have been searching my brain for the place, time, the original feeling, when it arose. I can't seem to put my finger on it. Maybe because this friend is every changing her self. Maybe she has been just out of reach this whole time... I don't like being here and not knowing what to do.
I think I want to take a vacation from every one, my lover, my friends, my all that is in between. I want the fuck out of here. I can feel the pressure rising. I laughed my ass off last night, but now I am just left feeling drained, confused, and under appreciated. Who's fighting for me?