Is it "good night" or "good bye" ....?
There is a million things I would like to say, to whom, some one listening with their heart. Not just waiting for their turn to speak. To be rooted, to have wings. To dream and wake up from them with a desire to stay awake and go...
Maybe today I'll put on my jacket, walk out the door. Maybe I'll finish the rest of my coffee in my french press and wish not to want any more. I am really Pissed off right now! I am tired of waiting for some one to care. I am tired of waiting for some one to read what is really going on inside my head. I want to go on in spite of all these things. But not to spite. I had a really good life before all of this, before coming here. Was I bored of that, did I feel it wasn't real enough for me? Did any one care to know that person, does any one? But really do I care about all of that?
This will all get buried and ignored. Its a choose to look away. I wonder if you choose to hurt my feelings like you so often do?
Maybe today I'll put on my jacket, walk out the door. Maybe I'll finish the rest of my coffee in my french press and wish not to want any more. I am really Pissed off right now! I am tired of waiting for some one to care. I am tired of waiting for some one to read what is really going on inside my head. I want to go on in spite of all these things. But not to spite. I had a really good life before all of this, before coming here. Was I bored of that, did I feel it wasn't real enough for me? Did any one care to know that person, does any one? But really do I care about all of that?
This will all get buried and ignored. Its a choose to look away. I wonder if you choose to hurt my feelings like you so often do?