rosie
There is any heaven or hell?
I dont think so.
So...if i died, i start my new life in somwhere else?
If i die unnatural way...i cannot meet with my important person?
I would like to make to many things, i know its just about me....
Did i something terrible in my previous life/s, which/es i have to be like this and feel like this?
I was a terrible son of a bitch? i hurted people? i ate too many gazellas or killed people ?
i am so lost
Yaesterday i was a "funny" actor from a tumblr gif. wish i was not.
maybe if i draw gifs i could be my on characters in real world too?
the life is the next : born, childhood - when you get nothing waht you need, be a teenager - you feel eerybody have a lot of friends and enjoy life, they make "awful" thing with their parents, but you just stand alone and feel yourself lonley.
like you would be an old elephant in a cage in a huge cirkusz with wounds all your body.
and just staring at you that many people all day, waiting you make some memorabe.
everybody have a dream. mostly want to find a partner and live happyly, but of course rarely work on their marriage to reach this happiness.
or jjust want to be reach and famous.
but is just want to be some paceful place with my dad and feel that love what he could gave me.
i want to walk with wim, feel that i'm important. feel peace.
i dont want this mess.
i fought. and i could be if i know it worth it. but why?
being alone?
there is not worse feeling when in pain, crying at night and nobody cares.
like a victim who screaming in a middle of a dark woods, but nobody hears. but s/he has lucky. s/he could go somewhere paceful.
i wanted too
somewere, to where the music couldn''t either.
i hurted people, i didnt make any memorable,i caused fights.
its storm here. the rain is coming.
i wish it takes me away