"Come Home..."
So I took a six day vacation this week, and went home. Home is north (it's so strange to think of it that way), and a smaller city than where I live currently. But it's where I started work at Starbucks, and the Starbucks clan there is totally my family.
It's SO HARD to leave. Seriously, I want to bawl when I think of it, and I really hate packing up my stuff. Six days was WAY too fast. It was busy, every day, but too short.
The hardest thing? My old manager sat down to have lunch with me the other day, and she asked me if I'd think about coming back to work there if a spot opens up. This is pretty much a certainty, as there is a girl there who is waiting to hear if she got a promotion. The BIG thing is...do I want to come back? If I do, I don't have a car (It's harder to be without one here), and I'd be making the same amount hourly, but not with tips (tips are amazing in the big city). I love the city I live in, but I don't love the people I work with.
It's...ugh. I don't know what I'd do! I know I'll be faced with making this decision soon, and I'm super excited they WANT me back so badly...but I don't know if I'm ready to throw in the towel yet, or not. Do I love the city enough to tolerate the people i work with and the less-favorable people who frequent it, or do I miss the family aspect enough to want it back? Was I happier in the small city where my ex and his gf reside (ugh, I HATE THEM), or am I happier being farther away and trying to forge a life away from family?
I also could afford an apartment here, I think, on my own. In the city I currently live in, I need roommates, or I can't afford it. That seems to be the way for everyone there.
I don't KNOW. It kills me. I wish someone could help. You know? But no one can.
It's SO HARD to leave. Seriously, I want to bawl when I think of it, and I really hate packing up my stuff. Six days was WAY too fast. It was busy, every day, but too short.
The hardest thing? My old manager sat down to have lunch with me the other day, and she asked me if I'd think about coming back to work there if a spot opens up. This is pretty much a certainty, as there is a girl there who is waiting to hear if she got a promotion. The BIG thing is...do I want to come back? If I do, I don't have a car (It's harder to be without one here), and I'd be making the same amount hourly, but not with tips (tips are amazing in the big city). I love the city I live in, but I don't love the people I work with.
It's...ugh. I don't know what I'd do! I know I'll be faced with making this decision soon, and I'm super excited they WANT me back so badly...but I don't know if I'm ready to throw in the towel yet, or not. Do I love the city enough to tolerate the people i work with and the less-favorable people who frequent it, or do I miss the family aspect enough to want it back? Was I happier in the small city where my ex and his gf reside (ugh, I HATE THEM), or am I happier being farther away and trying to forge a life away from family?
I also could afford an apartment here, I think, on my own. In the city I currently live in, I need roommates, or I can't afford it. That seems to be the way for everyone there.
I don't KNOW. It kills me. I wish someone could help. You know? But no one can.