Perplexed
Last night was a shity night!
Didn't really do much yesterday I went to work and that's about it...nothing special.
After work went to Mike's sat there while the guys played Live...that was fun.
I'm really frustrated and a little stressed. Today I'm really down, trying to keep my mind off things. I cleaned my room, moved my bed, organized my desk, organized my dresser, made room for Anthony's clothes, cleaned my bathroom, did pretty much anything I could to get my mind off of last night.
I don’t know how to get one to understand how I feel about certain things, or how certain things they do make me feel. I’ve tried talking about it, but that doesn’t ever seem to get very far. It’s just frustrating, and those that know me when I get frustrated know that I just become very down and sad…don’t know why it’s been like that since I was little.
I always thought that most people get to an age in their life where they are ready to settle down, but I guess that’s just not everyone; maybe it’s just me.
When I came back to Tracy from Orange County things were ok, that didn’t last too long. I thought that things had changed, but I guess I was wrong. It sucks when you want something so bad, but it’s just no there or you have to wait for what seems like forever to get it.
Since most of my friends live in other city’s, it’s kind of like the only things that I have here are school, work (which I hate), my parents, and Anthony.
I’ve realized that here I don’t really have any friends, all my friends live in other city’s, and I only get to see them every so often for a short period of time. I wish that I had friends that lived here; I think that it would make things a lot easier…in many ways…Mostly for Anthony.
I don’t really have anyone to hang out with anymore, used to hang out with Rey Rey, but then he got with Alex, there was Mike but he’s looking to find a girlfriend, don’t hang out with Joe cause all he does is smoke himself stupid, Derek who I rarely ever talk to now, but it’s been like that for awhile, Charlie who has a girlfriend also, Aaron who moved to San Diego, Stacy who moved away to go to college, Matt who moved to be with his girlfriend….
I understand us not hanging out as much because everyone is in a relationship and that takes time away from other things…if you want it to work anyway. I see it happening in other groups as well, but they don’t seem to understand it as much. Most people that are in a relationship would rather be with there significant others…makes sense to me!
Ok I’m done
Didn't really do much yesterday I went to work and that's about it...nothing special.
After work went to Mike's sat there while the guys played Live...that was fun.
I'm really frustrated and a little stressed. Today I'm really down, trying to keep my mind off things. I cleaned my room, moved my bed, organized my desk, organized my dresser, made room for Anthony's clothes, cleaned my bathroom, did pretty much anything I could to get my mind off of last night.
I don’t know how to get one to understand how I feel about certain things, or how certain things they do make me feel. I’ve tried talking about it, but that doesn’t ever seem to get very far. It’s just frustrating, and those that know me when I get frustrated know that I just become very down and sad…don’t know why it’s been like that since I was little.
I always thought that most people get to an age in their life where they are ready to settle down, but I guess that’s just not everyone; maybe it’s just me.
When I came back to Tracy from Orange County things were ok, that didn’t last too long. I thought that things had changed, but I guess I was wrong. It sucks when you want something so bad, but it’s just no there or you have to wait for what seems like forever to get it.
Since most of my friends live in other city’s, it’s kind of like the only things that I have here are school, work (which I hate), my parents, and Anthony.
I’ve realized that here I don’t really have any friends, all my friends live in other city’s, and I only get to see them every so often for a short period of time. I wish that I had friends that lived here; I think that it would make things a lot easier…in many ways…Mostly for Anthony.
I don’t really have anyone to hang out with anymore, used to hang out with Rey Rey, but then he got with Alex, there was Mike but he’s looking to find a girlfriend, don’t hang out with Joe cause all he does is smoke himself stupid, Derek who I rarely ever talk to now, but it’s been like that for awhile, Charlie who has a girlfriend also, Aaron who moved to San Diego, Stacy who moved away to go to college, Matt who moved to be with his girlfriend….
I understand us not hanging out as much because everyone is in a relationship and that takes time away from other things…if you want it to work anyway. I see it happening in other groups as well, but they don’t seem to understand it as much. Most people that are in a relationship would rather be with there significant others…makes sense to me!
Ok I’m done