Feeling Left Out
As my 10 year high school reunion inches closer I've realized that I haven't done much since high school. I was a student at the Art Institute Online until February of 2010. I worked as a substitute teacher from 2004-2009. When my grandma got hurt I had to leave my job and school in order to be there for her when no one else would. Naive as I was my only hope was to return to work with a better job and possibly back to school in 2011. That though wasn't meant to be. My personal life was zero even though I tried to get back together with my ex but at last that wasn't meant to be. We had planned to spend the night together in 2011 but unfortunately my grandma got sick. So I of course had to cancel because I couldn't put myself first. Now this brings me around to why I feel left out. I feel left out because most of my classmates have gotten married and have started families and got good career's. So long ago I had hoped that I could of shown those who bullied me that I could overcome it. Guess who's the joke is on now? I spend 2 years taking care of her with really no one to turn to for support. To many of my classmates that probably isn't much. I've never been one to put myself out there because that isn't me. If I'm around people I don't know I hardly speak. I'm like that around some of dad's old military buddies on Thursday night. It's just a get together they have on Thursday nights. Why I go I'll never understand because I feel so left out. In many ways I wish that I could talk to dad as easily as I could my grandma. She may not of had all the answers but she'd listen and let me cry.